When Your Heart & Mind Disagree About The Break-Up

You are sitting with your cell phone staring at a text message you wrote to your ex hours ago. You debate whether to send it or not. You stare at your phone while your mind tells you to have more respect for yourself. You logically understand that sending the message is not going to make the situation any better – nor will it heal your pain. Then your heart enters the scene and overpowers your mind. Your heart says, “Go ahead, send it, you will feel better…temporarily at least.”

The scenario above represents one example of a misalignment between your heart and your mind that is a common occurrence after a break up. Every decision you make is determined by a combination of your logic and emotion. If these different elements that make you who you are happen to conflict, you will understandably feel conflicted and make decisions that reflect this turmoil.

The concept of alignment will help you understand why you may have been in a relationship that was not good enough for you. It will also help you understand how to use your logic to help heal your broken heart. Let’s look at some more examples of what happens when your heart and mind disagree with one another.

Scenario 1 – During the Relationship

Your mind says, “I deserve more – this relationship is not right.”
Your heart says, “Stay, it will work out.”

If you were in a relationship where it was obvious that you were not receiving the love, respect, and engagement that you deserve, then your mind was probably nudging you during the relationship and asking you, “Why are we still here?” You remained in that relationship for longer than you should have because your heart believed that your mate and relationship could change.

Your heart believed that it was better to be in a relationship that was mediocre than to be alone. Your heart was saying to you, “Hey, give it a chance, it’s not that bad.” Your mind and heart were not aligned and this probably led to fighting, to an internal struggle, and eventually the break up. Often when we want more from a relationship than we are getting, we continually try to get ‘more’ by attempting to change the person we are with or by forcing other changes in the relationship. This is generally a destructive path.

Scenario 2 – During the Relationship

Your heart says, “This relationship is everything I need.”
Your mind says, “There are red flags here that I shouldn’t ignore.”

When one partner in a relationship is not happy, they usually provide indications either verbally, in the form of passive-aggressive behavior, or via non-verbal actions of their discontent. If you are the other partner that is madly in love, you do actually receive the red flags as signals in your mind. Unfortunately, your heart overpowers your logic in this case. Your heart speaks so loudly about how in love you are and how perfect everything is, that you drown out the messages your mind has received.

Eventually, after the break up, it is easier to see the red flags were present in your relationship. You also may realize that some of the reason you were deeply attached to your ex was because you loved the idea of being in love. If you relate to this scenario, remember, you deserve a love with equal give and take. Reciprocity is essential to the success of a relationship and you should never have to convince someone to love you as much as you love them.

Scenario 3 – After the Break Up

Your mind says, “I am going to be okay. In fact, before long, I’m going to feel like myself.”
Your heart says, “The pain is excruciating, I don’t think I will ever feel at peace again.”

After your break up, if you sit quietly and listen to your inner voice, you will hear hope inside. This hope is telling you that you will feel better, that you will live life once again with passion, and that you will experience love once again. The information you are being sent from your mind  is based on your history and the fact that you have overcome obstacles in the past. Your mind remembers the times where you have faced adversity and have come out on the other side stronger and brighter. Your heart is speaking out of fear; listen to your mind – it has a strong basis for giving you hope.

Listen to words from friends, family, and counselors even if they do not feel like they are helping to heal your broken heart. Every single word helps. Listen to every word someone with experience has to tell you. Up until now, we haven’t discussed the subconscious mind. Positive messages to your subconscious mind can overpower negative ones from your heart. Everything you are reading and listening to about healing is entering your subconscious and will help you heal faster.

Above I have discussed the logical mind being overpowered by a somewhat illogical heart. Please note, the situation can certainly occur in reverse. Your heart may experience genuine love yet have seeds of doubt planted by an insecure mind. In either situation, if you are looking to heal your heartache from your current break up, please know it is possible.

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468 thoughts on “When Your Heart & Mind Disagree About The Break-Up

  1. Hi there. My name is Ryan and there is currently enough water in my eyes, along with that gnawing sickness from reeling due to relationship withdrawal. Let me State for the record that I am indeed an addict and I have experienced nearly every type of withdrawal. So I know what it feels like and that sick feeling of not having the person there mimics the symptoms almost identically. That said, it’s been four years since the break up. We were together six years. While it was rocky and full of plenty of turbulence, I loved/love this person. She is 10 years older than me. I found that eventually the age difference does come into play. The whole saying “age is just a number” is something I no longer agree with. I suppose that in the end I should feel better by now. And while I have periods of time where I feel completely over it, healthy and very aware of just how toxic it was, this person is just not fading and I still don’t feel fully put together again. I noticed this article due to the mention of the heart and mind conflicting. Because that is exactly the case here. I’m at a loss. Intellectually I understand everything going on. But apart from numbing myself I get very little relief. As you mentioned: completely temporary of course. I know I should face it head-on, but the thing is I have. Hence my being at a loss. When I see people talking about how they were only with someone for a matter of months it almost comes off as insulting. Like I said, together six years, apart for four. It just doesn’t make sense. I should also state that I have not so capable or even had much interest in another sexual relationship. Something her and I shared on a molecular level. I do feel like someone else would help. But I just don’t have it in me to find anyone. Sigh. I don’t know if I will get an email notification should I get a response. But I’m also not sure anyone can help me. This woman is not simply some “cougar” because the love was very real, mutually. We did however start as an affair. I supposed to statistically no one ends up living happily ever after with their “lover”. Still, the only thing that feels like it will provide relief is heroin in my veins or feeling her presence next to mine. I suppose my situation is slightly different than most. Especially given the fact I’ve come clean about being an addict. I would like to think that’s what it is, but I’ve never heard of 4 year withdrawal. And while I’m not sure anyone can help me, I am in fact at a loss and would happily except some nonjudgmental feedback. Good luck to all of us. Truly.

    • Hi, sorry to hear your story. I am in the same shoe as you are. I am ok and excepted for what it is. I am trying to find an answer why so many have to go through all this events. As I look back in my past I myself also had consequences for my action back then. When I decided to leave my ex with out thinking clearly if my action would hurt anyone. The moment I decided to leave her I already have consequences and I already written my future. So, your action have consequences. What you sow it will reap. So, be mindful. Walk a clear path with clear conscious before you decided to take action. Everyone in this world have to learn and go through this events or it will repeated til you learn from your mistake.

    • I feel the same right at this moment. I hate my life and myself for acting so desperate at times. I have loved, fell out of love, and love him again. For more than 4 years, though we were officially together for only 2 years. He just chose to let go of me and fall inlove with somebody else. What makes it more complicated is that he is my employee. I could have get over him already, but 10 months since he decided to love other girls, we still get attached with each other everytime we get close, or we get to be together, which is a lot of times. My heart just keep on hoping that may be someday he will finally realize how much he loves me still. But i found out he spent his christmas eve with his 8 months old girlfriend really broke my heart. As if the pain will kill me, or I wanted to die. I asked him to leave by that same day but he refused. Asking for 10 more days. But every minute of the pain just gets deeper, I just want him out of my life, never get to hear from him or see him. It is very very hard for me to let go of him as an employee because he knows everything about my business, and I trust him with the problems, and he can do a lot of things to lighten the job, and we started it together. I am thinking of drinking alcohol but I can’t stand the bitterness. I want to try to get high so I can’t feel the pain. I am praying that may God take this pain away already. We’ve been hurting each other for more than 2 years. I can only pray..

      • So sorry to here that miss. you actually are in a difficult situation. I have to say you must be really strong to stand that happening in front of you. If that was me, I could never do that. My bf just broke up with me last month. We were together for the past 4 years. Breakups hurt. I think he left an empty hole in your heart – a deep cut, maybe all you need is someone coming to fill it up, to replace the pain with love and care. I hope it will happen to you soon. You deserve a good man who is deep in love with you and willing to make you happy. Stay strong and positive! Tight hugs.

    • Four years is not that long or uncommon. I went out with a guy for 7 years and he cheated on me. I was devastated to say the least. Once a cheater always a cheater so I left him. I wanted to marry this guy and he broke my heart. I could not get out of bed, I did not feel joy in any of my activities. I felt like I could not go on without him. I thought about him all the time, morning noon and night. It took me almost 4 years to get over him, until the joy came back and the days were no longer grey. There is no time limit on this stuff. The heart heals at its own pace. Its now 20 years later and I’ve been married to a wonderful man for 13 years and we have two wonderful children. Things happen for a reason, and they don’t happen when and where we want them to but in the end things always work out for the best. Maybe you had to go through all this because the next girl is going to be “the one” and you needed to experience all that turbulence and pain so that you could be a better man for this new love that will someday come into your life. Stay strong- Do not pick up the heroin, I knew 3 people that did and now they are dead. You sound like a wonderful caring man, don’t let that go to waste. Good luck my friend…..

      • Thank you that was beautiful. I agree but in my case we were married for 20 years. I can’t believe it’s Gods will for a marriage to dissolve but I do agree through his grace alone a better beginning may come to be. Although this is still fresh and I don’t truly believe it’s for the best yet…I am trying too…

      • I really hope this is how my story turns out. I am completely broken, but I believe that God will get me through this. I believe someday I will see a better day. I thank you for your comment as it gives me hope.

    • Get rid of all your keepsakes or at least lock them away far out of site. Stop all contact with her. Write a letter letting her go. Love yourself harder and know that if you can love the wrong one this hard inagine how much more so you will love the right one. But you have to be free and ready for the right one and she will find you. Best of luck ☺

    • I had a similar situation except might only lasted for 4 months and 23 days. It was my very first relationship. I dated a person who was 4 years younger than me. I also believed the love was mutual and true. We made so many promises and planned things out. We decided to end it because of our parents and the age differences. Even though my heart kept saying i should continue on, my mind was always telling me this is wrong. I know for me, once i decide on something I will never look back. Even on our very last day and the break up, we tried our best to end it on a good note. We both cried that day, but who knows what the future will bring. If he wasn’t meant to be and he didn’t belong to me in the first place, he never will be no matter how much i try to fight it. Maybe it was destiny and fate that we would meet, but it also the same if we were not suppose to be together. This is what is helping me get over him. I hope it helps you too. I always tell myself if it wasn’t meant to be, it wasn’t and i am meant for something better. I hope you heal okay and I can’t imagine how i would feel if i was in your shoes. I would probably feel the same way too. Take care of yourself.

    • Your mentioning of addiction really hit the nail on the head. Exactly how I would describe my relationship with “her.” Met her when I was 15, she was 17. Lied and told her I was 16 so she’d date me, so relationship began with a simple “untruth.” Dated her on and off for seven years, the “off” part because of geographic distance more than anything else. Could not get her out of my mind. Wake up in the morning and there she was in my thoughts. Went to bed dreaming of her.

      She treated me badly towards the end of the seven years and I didn’t handle it well and treated her badly in return. She married someone else. The rational me decided that I needed to forget her and move on. Did that. Met nice girl. Had much better relationship with her, both better suited for each other. Still couldn’t forget “her” but pushed her out of my mind.

      Nine years go by. She gets divorced. I’m happy with two kids but still can’t totally let go of “her.” Run in to her. We talk. She confesses her stupidity for letting me go, enchanting music to my ears and heart. Head starts swimming. Endorphins ganging up on me. Dopamine tearing my common sense out of my head. Began torrid three year affair with her. It’s everything I thought of and more.

      Only problem is, leaving family for “her” would be the most self-centered thing I could have ever done. Won’t leave them and can’t let go of “her.” Agony, every day. Sheer agony. Tearing me apart. The wrongness of it is incredible. How could something that was once so beautiful be so wrong? Driving me nuts. Negatively impacting my job, marriage and total life.

      Finally, with the powerful assistance of Almighty God to whom I prayed and prayed for a solution, I told her it had to end. And end it did, but in my mind I still harbored the thought thought that some day it would be the two of us.

      Story doesn’t end there. That’s when the really difficult time began. The leaving was the easy part compared to staying away, especially when she began to date someone else. Head pounding, heart racing, mind won’t let go. The thought of her with someone else more than I can stand. Hit rock bottom. All alone I start screaming out to God to help me, please help me!!

      I’d like to say that there was immediate relief, but that would be a lie. The relief came gradually, as rational thought edged out the endorphins. It’s as if God was making sure the lesson stuck with me by making the withdrawal so hard and prolonged. I absolutely know I won’t be going to hell because I’ve already been there.

      Now it’s been twenty seven years since I pulled away and she’s still in the back of my mind. Talk to her every now and then, but that’s it. We’re in our 60’s now and she’s still “the one.” But, time and prayers have worked wonders on my broken heart. I am finally free from the dopamine rush and see her more rationally.

      I have let go and let The Lord drive. It is truly the only thing that saved me. He has worked wonders on my very soul. Yes, if I were ever single again I would go straight to her but that will be because it is God’s will, not mine. Instead of focusing my life and efforts on what I want, I tried focusing on what I could do for others. In return, God has given me back my soul. I am so very thankful it brings me nearly to tears every time I think of it. There is hope for all of us if it was possible for me to pull out of that nosedive. Praise The Lord, truly, for He has saved me from the worst despair ever imaginable. It was the only path that helped.

  2. I was dating this girl for about a month but I liked this SOO MUCH. We were always together, always talk, laugh, have jokes, and we knew each other very good. And we were with a bunch of friends one night and she ignored me and we didn’t talk that night and our friends wanted us to talk and I told her how I felt and that I like her a lot and all she said was “I don’t know”. She talked to other friends on how she felt and said she kind of liked me and that I was her first real relationship and all that stuff. So the next day I texted her and told her to be completely honest and tell me how she feels and she said how she wants to break up cause she needs time to her self and that we can still talk and she won’t move on. I didn’t answer that and later that night I texted her saying I still like her and I’m always there for her no matter what. It’s been three weeks and I’ve been talking to her as a friend and it’s been terrible. Sometimes we have conversations and it’s like she still likes me and sometimes it’s not like that. I try to tell myself to move on but I just can’t. She’s always on my mind, I can’t stop thinking about her and o can’t stop thinking about all the good times we had and I just miss her a lot. I don’t know what to do…

  3. I just brokeup with my ex who was with me for only 7months. We stayed together and we spent everytime together, we had trips, we met each other family, we were so happy! Until one day he started to complain about my behaviour. He said i was so difficult, always accused him and so many other things. He then said he wanted to break up. I was shocked because as i knew we fought just like normal couple, we even barely fought over things. Its like once in a few weeks. He put all the blames on me. He made me believe its all my faults. One day we met his friend and his friend started to tell about him. He said my bf never had time to have a lunch with them, always seemed busy with you, and any other things. I mean he chose to! He was just at home playing game and he never said to me that his friends invite him somewhere. He was even just too lazy to go somewhere. Its not my fault! They blamed me over things that i didnt even know and my ex bf never told me about it. I cried not because i felt guilty but because i felt manipulated by my own bf. He never complained anything during our relationship but i know he kept it. He asked advise from his friend when he knew nothing about us. I know his friend didnt like me but pretended that he did. I sometimes found his friend message asking to go to pool party with girls and then next time he would say to me that me and my bf (ex now) were good couple and he wished us the best. He even admitted me that he used to ask my bf to find another girl just in case my bf bored of me. He knew nothing about the contributions i shared during my relationship with my ex.
    2 weeks ago my bf asked me have a break under “this friend” advice. We both agree that we would take this break as a time to ease the anger. We agreed that we wouldnt date/flirt/hookup with other guy/girl when we were on break. I then moved out from his place and stay with my friends. During the break time he chat me every single day and we even met. Just like normal couple, we held hands and kissed. I thought the break was the best idea eventho i got many negative comments from my friends. I knew he finally spent his time with his friends. I knew they went to club every weekend, they smoke weed almost every night, they literally did all the things single dudes do (except play with girls). After almost 2 weeks we were on break he said to me he felt frustrated. By that moment he was drinking. I tried to call him but he didnt wanna answer he just wanted to talk through chat. He said his company reduced his salary and cut 2 weeks from it. I asked him why he said because his work was not satisfying during this past weeks. He was devastated and frustrated as he just signed a contract at this company. He also talked me that he felt like shit because he couldnt pass the test from other company. He said he felt stupid because all the questions were easy but he couldnt answer them correctly. I gave my time to calm his down as he always talked to me when he had problems. I said i got your back and i even tried to contact my sister in case she knew any company who offers job. I literally did everything as i always did when we were still okay. I said to him to calm down and stop drinking. But h didnt want to listen. The next day i went to his house because we had plan to go to zoo. I sat in his bed and he laid his head and i smiled i said i will always be there for you. We hugged each other and he suddenly said please dont this to me. I noticed everytime we almost dissolved by the emotion he always pushed me away. Its like theres something inside his mind.
    After i came back from zoo i went to my friend’s place and she was checking her tinder at the moment. She suddenly shocked and asked me is this your bf? I was also shocked to see him in tinder. My friend asked me should i swipe right? I said yes. And they both matched. I straight up called him with my friend’s number. It was so noisy like in the club/bar. I asked him when did he use the tinder? He said few days ago i said its written your last seen was an hour ago. He just said wtf wtf wtf. I asked him to delete that app. He said yes. I ended the call and cried but my friend chat him on tinder said that hes a coward, he let his gf hang on break and play with this app. He then replied to my friend with alot of nasty stuffs. “Fuck you bitch! Why did you even swipe right to your friend’s bf profile? Me personally swiped right to you just to prove to my friends that you are a slut…..*many curse words*”. My friend tried to calm me down and said i was being too good in this relationship and its time to let it end. I tried to make up my mind and totally agreed with her. The next day i came to his house to get my stuffs. I was shocked when he opened the door he was with his friend smoking weed. He looked high and whole of the apartment was hazy. I packed my stuffs and once its done i asked him to come inside the bedroom talk to me. I asked “what are you doing on tinder?” he said “having fun”. I said “you have a gf do you even think about me when you are playing there?” He said “I had not have”. I step closer and i asked it again “what??” He said “i had gf. so now can you please take your stuffs and go?” I was so mad and cracked, my hands were shaking and my heart pounded so fast i couldnt control myself and i slapped his face. I took my stuffs and i said to him hes an asshole. I went down to the security and told them there are ppl smoking weed at (his floor). I went out from the apartment with very huge and heavy luggage. I tried to calm myself down so i smoked. I didnt know what happen to me. I cried without even noticing it. My hands were still shaking and the feelings hit me all at once.
    I couldnt believe someone i trusted, i loved could do that to me. I know its a lesson but its sad when i remember how we had so much plans together, to get married, to settle down in one country and be happy and it still brings me to tears when i know we end like this. I hate him so much now but i see him everytime i close my eyes. The worst part of broken heart is when i just wokeup. Especially when the nightmare woke me up. I stare side by side and hes not around. I miss the tighter hug i got when i wokeup in the midnight. I miss the kiss when i was sleeping. The goodnight. The taste of milk he made me every single night, the jokes, the smell, the greenish blue eyes, everything. I never knew we would be like this. Just a week before it happened we laid down in the jacuzzi of his house and he told me he was so happy to be with me and he loved me so much. Now it disappeared. Im still in pain eventho i know ill be alright. I still cant believe eventho i know this will reshape me to be better.


    • Well I’m a total mess. I am a combat veteran and that seems to say enough…I can’t keep a relationship. I loved a guy for almost 20 yrs and tried to date others. To no avail most claim I’m demanding and to me I’m always lonely cause I need soooo much affection. Lately I have been trying to date after coming to terms with the 20yrs just isn’t happening. I found a literal squirrel eater tattooed head to toe total pot head he has horrible dude behavior and thinks it’s necessary to be a real man ugh and another guy who rediculously perfect does everything by a fairy tale and he’s a 40 yr old virgin and not exactly attractive. Wtf why can I just get it together. I do have high standards fine too high but I am always willing. I just don’t know why people just don’t do what seems awesome at the beginning of any relationship. That is what works! I think gods punishing me. I really am not a saint but for the love of god I don’t want any drugs in my life even if it’s in my bff life he is my extention. Unfortunately brain dead to compassion and affection. No ever wants or needs or stays as long as I do. And why must this perfect guy be a freakn virgin how the crap am I supposed to work with that being as I’m not attracted to him even though he’s so unreal perfect. I feel like a total nut and still too boy crazy. Such a waste of time really but my heart is empty and I’m so lonely even in a crowded room. I really wanted love and kids it’s just not happening like my punctuation lol anyways thank you for this site still hoping not sure why. Shold be done with the idea of love

      • Guess my last comment on here wasn’t enough. I’m just sitting here with the squirrel pothead bored and if I try to kiss him he doesn’t want it. I’m so lonely. I guess as all my ex say I bitch too much. I’m not sure what to do. How can sharing every feeling be so bad. No matter what happens I still feel for the wrong guy. I have no idea what guys want. Maybe I should fall in love with a real man not just a boy. Some how the things that were funny quirks are now offensive and insensitive

  4. Hi everyone,
    I can totally undersand how you are all feeling. My boyfriend of 1.5 years broke up with me just one week ago and I feel like my world ended. We lived together and had a happy relationship. I never felt so much in love with someone like with him. He became my best friend, my family and I was always imagining a future together. He also told me that I am the first relationship which is really serious and really working and that he loves me so much.
    Not long ago I had to go away for 3 months but we still talked everyday and I even came home to visit every month. I felt really lonely that time and I know he had a great time. And I felt like he didnt really supported me. But I thought everything will be good again as soon as I am back. And first it was. We were both really happy but due to the fact that we both worked very different hours we didnt spend as much time together as before. I didn´t mind that because I just enjoyed every minute we did get to spend together. But again I could feel that he got more distant. Still I never expected anything to happen. I thought our love was strong and that we could get through rougher times. But then last week he broke up with me. He told me that he just feels like he has to be alone for now. That he can´t be in a relationship at this stage of his life and that he feels like I am to attached to him and that he can´t be my happiness. But he also told me that he still loves me so much. And he even cried in front of me and told me how incredebly hard this is for him. This just makes it sooo hard for me to understand. His friend told me that he didnt seem very happy. He moved out and lives in a hostel now until he finds something else. He feels lonely but he is convinced that he had to make this decision. He also blocked me on facebook. This just feels like he wants to delete me out of his life. Like he wants to ignore the last 1.5 years and that we were planning a future together. I just simply don´t understand!!! Why does he do that when he is clearly not happier now? When he still loves me? I still love him sooo much and I just feel like I want to wake up from a bad dream. I feel like I should just give him time and let him realize that he misses me and that it was all a big mistake. But my head tells me that that might never happen. That maybe we will never talk to each other again. This thought is terrifying for me. We used to talk every day for the last 1.5 years and now not seeing him and talking to him and knowing what he is doing for 1 week feels so horrible!
    But I also think I should not try to contact him anymore? When he broke up with me I already cried and begged so much so he knows how I feel. So I think running after him won´t make it better. Instead it will show him that he was right and that I am so dependant on him. But then again I am afraid that he will just forget me. Or think I moved on and that he did me a favour and I am better of without him. What do you think? I am just so confused!! I feel like I lost my best friend and that there could never be anyone with who I could feel so free and so much myself

    • I know how you feel except I wasn’t with my girlfriend for 1.5 years. What my mom told me after my break up was “if you love something let it go, and if they love you to they will come back” after my mom said that to me I felt better but as time has passed she never came back and we don’t talk that much. I think you should just let him go and hang out with your friends and just have some time to your self and just not think about what all happened. I don’t know if that will work for you because it hasn’t worked for me but it worked for one of my good friends. Hope you start to feel better

    • Hanna…I am exactly in the same situation. My boyfriend and I were supposed to celebrate our 2 year anniversary next FEB. We have been living together and had a life together. A few months ago he started working nights and I felt our relationship declining. Then 3 weeks ago it was like a bomb dropped on me. He wanted to be alone and he no longer loved me. What hurts me so much is that I put so much effort into making things work because he was in fact the best relationship I have ever had. I am slowly coming to learn that I deserve better than this and I don’t need a man that is not going to love me completely. Its so confusing because many times during our relationship he would tell me that our lives were close to perfect. I wish there were things I can change but sadly the best thing for us to do is live our lives.

  5. I have dated a married man for about 1 year and half. I always felt that he was just telling me things i wanted to hear never really meaning any of them. I fell for all of it like an idiot. Im 34 and married as well and he’s 55. He promised we would be together. He wasnt happy in his marriage from way before i came in the picture, or so he said. We were so close, would email and text constantly. He got a new job and i knew things would definitely change between us. We worked together, he was my boss. After he got this new job he changed. We stopped emailing like we used to. Sometimes he wouldnt even reply. I started feeling really stupid. If he didnt want to keep talking to me why wouldnt he say it. Everytime i brought the subject up he would give me some bs excuse. I tried to walk awa many times but always came back to him. I felt maybe i wasnt patient enough. Funny thing is he never really tried to stop me. When I asked him when we would be together he said wasnt sure, he didnt have a time frame and didnt have the answer. I was torn. I finally made the break two week ago. Im in pain. I miss him terribly. I asked him not to contact me anymore, there was no point in keeping in touch. I didnt hear back from him for one week. Then he sent me an email over the weekend telling me he had been in the hospital for 2 days n that his father in law had passed away. I felt terrible abt the fact tt he had been sick and of course the death in his family. I replied and I told him how sorry i was about the whole thing. Gave him my condolences. He replied told me he loved me and missed me. I really want to move on. Why does he do this? If he knows he diesnt want to be with me then why not let me move on. I am not going to email him anymore to ask how he’s feeling. But what should i say/do if he contacts me again? Any advise would be greatly appreciated.

    • dear Momo, I am in the same situation as you are. I am 26 ,unhappily married. my husband abuse me mentally and physically. so i started an affair with another married man around 40. although he was around 40 he was handsome, tall and muscular . also he knew how to make up my mind when i am down and out. thats why i allow him to do whatever he wants me to do.

      but few weeks ago, he started changing. in the start of the relationship. he was following me passionately. but now he doesn’t even call me. i don’t know what happened..
      but when i asked him what is wrong with him..he replied me : you are clumsy. you get annoyed so easily :

      he was right.i am little bit clumsy.but i loved him in the bottom of my heart and i gave him everything i could give him..now he is ignoring me.

      once i tried o have a warm conversion about this situation with him, but he didn’t show me any interest.

      he may have a busy schedule, he may have problem with his family..but i also live a miserable life. he was my only hope left.

      now he is gone and i really don’t understand what to do..

    • Hi,
      I am reading your comments on this blog, because I found myself in situation which I thought it could be only in the worse nightmare…my story is similar like you described…in 2013 I thought I met a men of my life, we met at the conference and he started to write me…after few emails he told me that he is separated and have two kids, but that his marriage is over, his ex run away with another guy, but than she got cancer and he decided to help her for the sake of kids. So she moved in back in the house and he was staying with her sister. And that he desperately want to move on. This is the story he told me and after millions of emails we developed a long distance relationship , we travel around a lot and meet us in different places, I fell in love with him deeply and like never before. We got engaged. We were from different country and he wanted me to move to his country , so that I will be with him. He met my family, cousins , I didn’t met anyone of his family yet. After 8 months I moved from my country to him , he got us a place to live and he wanted to sort out his situation – proceed with divorce. I realised that his situation wasn’t sorted as he told me it was! After 2 months of our life together, he was informed by his ex that she got back her cancer. And at that time dreams just fall apart. After 6 months he decided to move back to his home to look after his kids . In the mean time he was promising me that he will sort out his situation and so on. I was a stranger in foreign country, came there with hope and enthusiasm that he is the love of my life and than this happened. I was totally down and started to get depressed (nobody there that I could tell my story – I couldn’t tell my parents , they thought he was divorced , so did I, that’s why I move from my country!) anyway that was in 2014. we also established business together. In early 2015 he was diagnosed with cancer. Now my life and dreams collapsed totally. I must tell that I don’t know if his ex was really ill and as well if he is really ill. I never saw any diagnosis, I believed him on word what he said. But lately I discover that he is lying to me , he was lying regarding several things also business and I caught hih. In November 2015 we wanted to move into different home together and that he will finally sort out his situation , but the day when he suppose to do that, he said he doesn’t want to be with me and he doesn’t want to sort out his situation and he wants to be with his kids . So now I am back home , heart broken. It’s is difficult also because we share business together… I wanted to share my story with you, if maybe somebody had similar experiences

  6. I have been with my girlfriend for 20 Mths I have known her for 20 years and whenever we were together there was always something there I don’t know if it was just lust and physical but always something. She had previously been in a relationship with a good friend of mine and who I know she loved deeply we had kissed on occasions since there split and I always told my mate as felt I had to even though I knew he had cheated on her (so did she) but felt it was the right thing to do at the time that was a lot of years ago none the less. Anyway I made contact again after breaking up with the mother of one of my children and after 8 mths of not being able to function or cope with anything other than doing what I needed to do for my 2 boys I was heart broken when I realised what a mistake I had made and learned so much from destroying that relationship anyway on to the knew partner as usual we got on great despite claiming to not really like each other at school etc but was always there despite how we both tried to claim it wasn’t we went out on a date finally and slept together and spent hours and hours on the phone although she tell me after the first night she did tell me she was in love with someone else at this point I said it’s fine and pretended to myself we were just having abit of fun etc to save myself any hurt I think she did sleep with the said person after we had slept together that inside really hurt although I never showed it (my bad I guess) I also done stuff that was in appropriate with another girl although never had sex with her anyway we finally both realised that it was each other we wanted and told the world it was difficult as ex partners played a big part with friends and family but we stuck with it and we’re happy and then it all started to go wrong she would do things that deeply hurt me ( going out with someone I knew she had slept with as was just a friend and I don’t think anything happens for one minute but the mentioned girl earlier was out of bounds for me although also a good friend that we confused for something else as she claimed had been the same for her I let this go although killed me every time inside only a few times but none the less hurt me and felt she had lost respect since then she has crushed my heart countless times and every time I go back because I love her I can’t think of any other reason other than that and she just keeps doing stuff that kills me inside now a year on the double standards are unbelievable but I can’t seem to stop it I sit time after time devasted while she seemingly doesn’t care but then seems to melt me inside until the next day/time she says she doesn’t know why she does it and I know how that feels as have bad jealousy issues myself and when I let my head run away with me do the same and ruin things but I have been counselling and am slowly learning trying to deal with my issues my head is telling me to go but my heart won’t let me I’m so sad and hurt but I still love her unconditionally and want to be happy again but am I just living on happy memories and an impossible dream

  7. I struggle with this now…we were married…have a young child…and allowed too many outside influences to dictate our lives, due to our culture. We were together for 3 years and married for one…during the last few months of our relationship we had been arguing and fighting constantly because he felt I didn’t know how to love him, and would constantly pick fights with me that put me in a shell. I didn’t know how to be intimate or talk to a person that I was once able to share everything with because of fear of arguing or fighting. It became overwhelming, especially in the presence of a baby. He grew up in a broken home, and we knew this is not what we wanted for our child, but as I sit here today, writing this, this is where we stand. His family doesn’t like me because anytime we had an issue, it would always be repeated back to his mother, as far as my parents, they love him despite his flaws and only wanted the best for us and for us to figure out our issues on our own because as my dad states, “Marriage is a long journey, and everyone’s path is different” …and truth be told, I know he is afraid of his mother, so deep down I know she is the driving force that has led to our demise. We could have worked out our differences and raise our child, but unfortunately, as I sit here and type this out…I am still dealing with the hurt. We separated almost two years ago and dissolved our marriage almost 9 months now. It’s hard! I know it’s good to cry, but when will the tears end? I can’t have a discussion with him without tears flowing…it’s just crazy. And I can’t say I won’t be in his presence because we do have a child, so he has to see him…there has got to be an easier way to deal with this.

  8. I can relate to these stories. The man I am in love with broke up with me in December 2014. We had been dating for 2 years. In January we were seeing eachother once a week because I had to leave my dog behind till I got situated. In February he got into a new relationship after a month and a half separation. I didn’t talk to him until March and that was one day and then once in April. This past week we have talked and seen eachother 3 times. I told him today I am done fighting but I think I need to continue to fight to try and get him back.

  9. My boyfriend of 4.5 years is saying he doesn’t think he is in-love with me anymore and may have never truly been in love with me. We have a dog and a life together. We are best friends. When he told me this he was crying uncontrollably and saying that he loved me more than any other person in the world, but just doesn’t feel that romance anymore and isn’t sure if he every truly did. This is very difficult for me to accept because I have felt REAL love from him so much over our relationship, as well as recently. I just don’t know what this means and part of me wants to run away but another part doesn’t want to walk away from this beautiful life that we have together. We have always talked about how happy we were and how excited we were for the future. We made so many plans and he frequently said “When we get married….”. This really just feels so out of the blue and I am so confused. I told him I wanted to fight for our relationship and that I would give him a few days space to think about what he wants. Now I have been away from 2 nights and we have still seen each other and spoken briefly but it just feels like my whole life is ending. We have moved around a lot together and if this is over there is no doubt that I will move out of the state. But that will be such a huge move and we would intend to share our dog. I just dont want to regret not trying harder. Everything in our relationship always seemed so perfect. I am trying to be mature and not overwhelm him and I think I am doing a good job, but then when I am alone or really anywhere it doesn’t take much for me to fall apart. We haven’t told most of our friends and family yet because of what a big deal it will be to everyone and we are just not ready to face it. People have said its still possible for us to fix this but it is all teetering on his willingness and I am so afraid of him just feeling more and more separate from me. I just want to go home.

    • Hi Blaire,

      I am in a similar situation with you. I dated my boyfriend for 2 years and he recently moved for an internship while I am still finishing up school. Though we were doing fine about a month later he told me his heart just isn’t in it anymore but that he still loves me and is in love with me. We are still trying right now but I feel like there is not manual for this. I figure trying would make me feel better, so that even if we break up I would have not regretted anything, but it’s hard. I can no longer be myself with him without feeling at every moment that every gesture, every kiss is him forcing himself to fall back in love with me. We had a great and beautiful relationship and it does feel like it came out of the blue. I was just wondering how you have been dealing with this issue and if you have any advice?

    • Hi Blaire, I’m in the exact situation as you are. 4,5 years relationship and him breaking down while telling me, future talk etc etc.

      Did you guys end up getting back together?

  10. My ex-girlfriend and I broke up about a week ago, we were together almost 6 months. She was my first love, and we did almost everything together. We even planned to move in together after i came back from the army, and it would last one year. But one day I was invited to an LGBTQ party, it was really fun but i got kissed by a girl. And i freaked out, the next day I tried to contact my girlfriend but she was on a trip. And I spent the whole day crying, and i felt horrible. And when I finally told her, she ignored me. And I gave her some space, and she told me that it was ok, but that i should be drinking so much. And i didn’t, but after that she just changed. And we broke up 2 almost 3 months after the accident, and all I can think about is her, I dont want to seem crazy or desperate, but I want her back but I don’t know how she feels about it. And I want to ask her, but it seems like she broke up with me because she’s not in love with me anymore. But she said the day we broke up that it was that she had so much going on in her life, and she doesn’t have control over it anymore.
    I really don’t know what too do….

  11. My boyfriend for 4 years broke up with me last month. He told me that he wants time and space for himself also for his work. I think he got toxic because I keep on demanding his time. On the first week i tried to save our relationship I kept on contacting him but then he wont listen. I tried not to contact him because i already got tired and it really hurts me. But then the following week he’s the first one to message me telling me he wanted us to be friends. It’s difficult for me to friend him because there’s still hope that everything will be ok. I dont know what he means that he wants us to be friends. Then now he’s asking me out. What should I do?

  12. Hi, I’m 22. Me and my ex were only together for 3 months. In those three months we talked every single day. If we weren’t talking, we were texting, if we weren’t texting we were facetiming, if we weren’t facetiming we were snap chatting each other, and if we weren’t doing any of that we were together. He was always under me, if I didn’t text back fast enough he would text me again or call me. When we were together he wanted to constantly he touching me or holding me. He told me he loved me at least five times a day sometimes more. He told me I was his first love and he’d never felt this way before. He told me that he’d never been so happy, in his entire life. He helped me write my paper for school. I tried helping him figure out how to get back in school. He told me a lot of about him and all about his past, his parents, being bullied when he was younger, secrets that only he and I know about his past. I told him about my life, my past experience, being bullied when I was younger, being molested, and attempting suicide 3 times within the last year and a half. It was a worldwind romance, if there is such a thing. I visited him at his job about once a week for the first two months because he said he would be bored. I took him lunch. I even helped him with gas money 3 different times, $50 each time. If he needed something, like money to buy something on eBay I let him use my card to buy it, he would say that he’d pay me back but never did. Sometimes he’d give me money to put on my card to buy something and I trusted him with my credit card information. I took him to get his very first massage, and treated him to a date at a rooftop restaurant. He told me I treated him like a king and that he’d never been treated so well. I lived with my parents during this time. He lived with his parents throughout our relationship except for the last 2 weeks. He became my best friend I told him everything. Whenever my parents would start being really hard and harsh on me I’d tell him, if I had a bad day at work I’d tell him or if my sister was getting on my nerves I’d tell him. I’d talk about to get it out of my system and then I’d be on to the next thing. We went on dates every weekend, and he would pay for the first month and a half and then I paid or we went Dutch after that. We saw each other just about every weekend and then maybe once or twice during the week. Well about two months after we started dating we had our first big argument, it was about me feeling like he had an attitude and him feeling like I also had one, and just a big lack of communication on both ends. We avoided the subject all day, and then right before I went to work that afternoon we decided to hash it out. He told me he didn’t like my attitude or that I always complain about things, and I told him I’m not always complaining, I’m generally happy but if something gets on my nerves in my day I tell him because I thought he was my best friend and I thought I could talk to him about anything. I told him that I talk about it and then I let it go, I never hold on to whatever I’m feeling. He started yelling at me and I told him to get out of my car. About 5 minutes later he broke up with me via text. I called him and asked if he really broke up with me and he said yes, it just isn’t working for him anymore and I disrespected him by telling him to get out of my car, I told him that he disrespected me by yelling, and recalled all of the times he said he’d never break up with me. He then tried to take back his break up, and said that this break up didn’t count and he didn’t mean what he said, he was just angry, and he was sorry etc,. He came to my job and we talked out what our issues were and I accepted him back as my boyfriend. I told him that he always seems to get upset with me over very small things and that it wasn’t healthy and it would not make our relationship last. He agreed to work on it. He would then reassure me that he loved me and he was sorry, etc. Now during this time he had decided that he wanted to move out of his parents house because he was always on my side of town anyway due to wanting to be with me and his friends also living close to me. He transferred jobs to be closer to his soon to be new home, and would start working 3rd shift, he would be able to have every other weekend off and go to church with me every Sunday (his words not mine). He wanted my help with saving his money for him. He gave me 200 per check for two checks. I saved it for him, and added money to that so that he could have enough to move in, per his request. I helped him find an apartment and checked his credit score for him to ensure that he’d be approved. He tells me that I should get half of my things packed as well to put in his apartment. And at one point when my parents were on my case he offered to let me move in with him. Now fast forward another month, everything seems to be going well, we don’t argue much, if at all. Though sometimes he would be rude and say rude things to me or yell at me because I didn’t follow his directions or because I wasn’t on time for something. During those times I just would be completely silent and give him the silent treatment until he apologized. He still is offering me to move in with him or at least get half of my things. About three weeks before we broke up, I asked him if we were okay, and if everything between us was okay, just to be sure. And he gets upset with me for asking and tells me that he never doubts that I will be his wife and future mother of his kids, so I take his word for it and assume everything is on the up and up. Now about 2 weeks before we broke up he moves into his apartment. On the day that he moved in I was responsible for getting the money order for him and meeting him at the complex by 9 that morning. I tell my parents that I have to work 3rd shift three nights in a row so that I can stay with him because I know they’d be mad if they knew. The night before he moved in was his very first night working 3rd shift and I tried my best to stay up with him via FaceTime. I went to sleep for about 2 hours and then stayed up for an hour or two and went back to sleep for an hour and stayed up for two. Needless to say I was tired the next morning so instead I met him at 10am, an hour after the time. I told him I was getting the money order and that I was sorry for being late and that there was not a particular time that the complex had to move in, he could move in at anytime of the day so I didn’t think it would be a big deal. When I got there I laughed at him for being mad and this made him even more mad, he didn’t want to talk to me so I gave the the silent treatment as well and told him I could go home if he wasn’t going to talk to me after I just helped him move in and got the money order and added money to what he had so he could have enough. He quickly changed his tune. We went to sleep and we also had sex that day. The next morning I let him drive my car to work because he didn’t have enough gas in his car to make it and he wouldn’t get paid until three more days. We have sex that day also. I spent my last dime to make sure that during that week when he moved in he would have food to eat, and so would I while I was staying there. He was a chronic smoker (marijuana) and I started to smoke with him occasionally. On that day he asks if he can drive my car to his friends house down the street and I say sure. We smoke before he leaves and when he leaves I eat a bag of popcorn and I fall asleep. I crumble the bag and put it on the nightstand and decide that I will tidy up when he gets back and throw away the popcorn bag in the kitchen. Well, when he gets back as soon as he walks in the door he’s yelling at me and asking why I didn’t pick up the popcorn and says that there was popcorn on the bed, I explain to him that I didn’t know there was popcorn on the bed and that I planned on cleaning up when he got back so I didn’t think it should be a big deal, he brushes the bed off angrily and continues yelling, and I continue to tell him that I made plans to do it already.. Finally I just look at him, roll my eyes, and turn over and go back to bed. The next day I work in the morning, and one of the ladies I take care of is in the hospital. During this day my parents are also nagging me about coming home and laying up with my boyfriend, and the previous night my dad calls my job to see if I’m really at work, he had also done this the night before unbeknownst to me. So when I get back to my boyfriends apartment during my break I am frustrated, as well as sad that the lady I take care of is in the hospital. He asks what’s wrong and I tell him about the lady and my parents being on my case. He attempts to cheer me up but it doesn’t work, and he becomes frustrated that it wasn’t working. I lay in bed until it is time for me to head back to work. When I get up, I accidentally step on one of his shoes, he yells at me and tells me that I am stepping on his shoe, I tell him sorry I didn’t know, and he says I need to look before I walk. I again say I didn’t know. He lets it go, and afterwards ask me if I could take him to his friends house that is by my job before i go to work and I say okay. On the way there I have to stop and borrow money from my brother in law to put gas in my car so that my bf can get to work for the night. I drop him off and head to work. When I get to work I am told by my manager that my dad cannot call the house anymore asking for me or asking for any other number. By this time I am very frustrated. I text my boyfriend and tell him about what happened and then I ask him if he could please stop getting upset with me over small things because I was already dealing with enough. And then he broke up with me, saying that my parents were too much for him, and that he didn’t want to cause more stress on me. He asks if I will still pick him up from his friends house and take him home and that he’d drive his own car and get gas from his friend to get to work. I say okay. We get to his apartment and I gather my things. I ask him if we can talk, and tell him that I need closure because I don’t understand how I could deal with so much and he wasn’t willing to deal with anything. He then told me that my parents weren’t the only deal breaker for him and that he didn’t like how I acted when I smoke or how big my appetite was during that time or that I would eat most of the snacks(that I purchased). He also said that he didn’t like that I talked a lot when I was high(I talk a lot when I’m not high also) And that he did not like that I fall asleep when I’m high. I ask him if he felt this way why he would wait this long to say something and let all of this build up. And he said he didn’t want to hurt my feelings and he had been thinking about breaking up for a while. I asked him if he loved me and he said he cared about me, so I ask if he’s saying that he’s not in love with me, and he says he cares about me. I just say wow. Then he says he doesn’t know what he wants, I just say okay and start to leave, he asks if I want a hug and I say no. I leave and he calls me about 5 times from his phone and his work phone, he text me, and he messages my sister and best friend to ask if they’d talked to me. I texted him and told him that he didn’t need to worry about me anymore, and he continued to say that he didn’t know what he wanted. We talk and he decides he still wants to be in a relationship, I tell him that he has to prove that to me and ask me out properly not via text, or phone he would have to take me on a date and ask me if that’s what he wanted. We continue to talk and decide we’d get back together and that we’d go on a date that weekend. Well the weekend came and Friday morning my dad goes out to find my sister and see if she spent the night at her boyfriends house against his will, he takes my phone with him so I can’t warn her, I have a tablet so I email my then ex and ask him to call my sisters boyfriend to tell her to leave. He asks what’s going on and I tell him that id tell him later, I also tell him that if my parents are too much for him I understand, and I apologized for telling him so much about them. (They have good intentions they want to raise wholesome daughters, and want to shield us from any heartbreak that can come from being so intertwined in a relationship) My then ex insist that he can wait until I move out and that he would deal with it until then. I go over the his house and we spend time together during that day and night and I leave at about 11, and he leaves to go to his friends house. The next day we spend the evening together, he comes to a birthday party with me, and we go on the date, he asks me out, and gives a little speech about how it’ll get better and we are back together. We go grocery shopping and he buys things for his apartment and I purchase the groceries for his apartment. We put up the things he bought around the apartment and we watch tv together, he lays under me as normal, and we fall asleep. The next morning we go to church, after church we go back to his apartment for a nap, we have sex, and we go and get food later that evening. In order to avoid any drama with my parents I head home at 9, as he said he was about to take a nap. We text all night until I fall asleep. The next morning I ask if it’s okay for me to come over, and he says yes and asks how often I’d come over, and I said I wasn’t sure but not everyday. I tell him I’m not sure what he’s comfortable with anymore and He says I’m welcome to come whenever, I say okay but change my mind about coming that day because I hadn’t showered yet and I had to work that day. He tells me to “stop making up excuses baby”, I could shower at his place, just get my things and come. I say okay and head there, things seem to be fine. He asks if I’ll take him to the store and I do. He smokes, and I go to work, he gives me a kiss and hug before I leave. Now fast forward two hours, I get advice from my sister, who is aware of all the things that have taken place, I ask her if I should address my bf about him attempting to talk to another girl an hour after we broke up the second time, she advices that I should, so I ask him about it and he says it was during the time that we broke up, and I say we were only broken up an hour, he says he was just mad, and I say it’s still not okay and I ask what he would do if it were me, and he says he’d never speak to me again. I say okay. I ask if he’s even going to apologize and he says he apologizes but he has already told me that it during the time that we were broken up. I ask if he’s even going to try to fight for this relationship or if he’s just not going to care and if he’s just going to let me go and he says that my parents are too much for him, I ask why he even bothered to ask me out just two days ago, or why he’s been acting like we were okay if that’s how he felt and he said he didn’t want to hurt my feelings. Long story short, (though it is still very long) I’m broken hearted. I feel so unwanted, and so worthless. I’ve cried everyday for about a month now. I’ve attempted suicide twice. I even had to go to the hospital for five days. I went to a psychiatrist, and I am taking meds now to help me cope but I am still very sad everyday. I genuinely loved and cared about him and I believed that he cared about me. He would tell me that he’d never let me go, and that he’d fight for me, and that he’d never break up with me, then that he’d never break up with me again. My mind won’t let me let go of all the memories. I dream about him every night. I’ve tried praying, and reading the bible. And I am trying to trust God but I just want my heart to stop hurting. I have literal panic attacks at least once a week. My heart pounds at least half the day. I may go to sleep feeling okay but I wake up sad. I know I shouldn’t look at his social media but I do and it makes me even more sad. He hasn’t attempted to contact me at all, I texted him 3 times in the last month, once trying to get back one of my pots but I changed my mind and told him I just wasn’t ready to see him and that he could just keep it, he tweeted that he doesn’t “like sh** like this” after I told him I wasn’t ready to see him and tried to workout a way to get the pot without seeing him. He’s already talking to other girls, and flirting with them openly on social media. He claims to be “so happy” and that he can’t remember the last time he had a worry, and life’s great for him, etc. and recently he posted a picture of the girl who he tried to talk to during our break up promoting a party that she is throwing and after that my mind went into a daze…I will no longer look at his social media pages but I just want to know how I’m going to be okay. I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, sometimes it feels like I can’t breath. I try eating but my stomach hurts every time I try, I try sleeping and take sleep medicine for it but I always wake up in the middle of the night sad, and stare at the ceiling. I have been taking my medicine almost two weeks now. And I still feel hopeless. I don’t think about suicide but I also don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have small moments of relief then I’m sad all over again, there has not been one day since the break up that I have not cried. And I just don’t know what to do…

    • Uhm. I’m sorry Ms. Bee of what have happen to your relationship, It does really hurt, But don’t let your happiness turn only for one person, you have your family and your friends who are worthy to your everyday sacrifice, so chin up and cheer up, you’ll always be beautiful for someone you deserve, don’t waste the time pass you by which you can be happy. Be brave and strong face the world get out of your room and try to inhale a refreshing air, life is wonderful when you always travel, it’s just like water. Are you willing to become stagnant water or a river that flows every day and makes a sound that is refreshing to hear. So packed up right now leave that relationship you chase, get well dress retouched that angelic face you have.and go on keep moving,when someone gets you down see to it that you pick-up something,If someone has the strength to knock you down well show them you have enough force to get-up, You deserve someone better,how I wish I was just beside you to tell you this that “you are wonderful as you are in the inside”not all men are the same it’s just that sometimes you pick the wrong guy. You know what someday you’ll find the man who could live beside you in sickness and in health and his favorite place is just beside you and that’s all he need, How I wish I’ll be that guy.but were oceans apart,, by the way I’m 26 years old giving advice to one of the angel who are worthy of the love that can be done perfectly..so stay beautiful and blooming I’ll just keep you in touch..Godbless and have a nice year 2015…If we met someday and in sometimes I would like to bring back the very important thing they took away from you…your HAPPINESS…especially that perfect smile… like right now when you were reading this message of Mine…

    • I’ve also went through a breakup. In fact, we only lasted for 3 months and 6 days. I don’t know exactly what the reason is, but he was making up some excuse to breakup with me. At the same time, he told me that breaking up with me was one of the hardest things he had to do. I think it’s not fair how he would say that especially since he was talking to a girl whom he made out with before we were together. He told me this 2 days before he broke up with me. I’ve also felt that I was unworthy of love, that I was inadequate. I was diagnosed with adjustment disorder with mixed anxiety and depression after that… I don’t feel like talking much about him, but every time we go out, he just can’t stop touching me. It made me feel so uncomfortable. He tried to convince me to do things I wasn’t ready for. I sometimes feel that I wasn’t appreciated in the relationship, so I don’t know why I’m still pining over something that’s already finished. I still cry about him sometimes. I really wish I would stop caring. I honestly don’t want to go through this again. I’ve made this decision to be a spinster. So yeah…

      • Hi sorry for the experience dear… Though the truth is when someone is not in love with u the person is not just in love with u nd there is absolutely nothing u can do about it, so just try as much as u can to move with your life no matter what it takes-perhaps I know it ain’t that easy anyway because I went through same sh**t… But the thing u have to know is ‘what could be will surely be’ so just accept the break up nd move on because if only u were post to be, then definitely u will…. God bless…. Wish u best of luck

  13. 3 years ago me and this guy met each other at school and we have a thing for 2 years like we always liked each other and then he asked me out i felt like he was kidding cuase what everything i heard from people and realationships werent my think but since i liked him alot i said yes acouple a week later i broke up with him. He was so mad and i was dieing. i truly hate my self .I see and hear stories but its never the girl that breaks his heart and still is deeply inlove with him anyway. for 3 weeks he was so angry but he was so heart broken he told me he couldnt stop think of me and he pour his heart on a silver plate in his own words and i rejected him i have no clue why becuase he was the only guy i liked so much then he started dating girls and became a huge jerk we still had a thing and i never knew how he felt anymore he cheat with his new girl friend the dated almsot 5 months but she cheated on him also he only did it out of anger although i really dont know. He was going to move to another state i found out last year and when the time came i wanted to tell him the last day he left but his gf was my friend and i didnt wanna brake another heart but i couldnt forget him and he never knew how madly i was inlove with him and my heart skipped 2 beats everytime i saw him i couldnt tell him becuase i didnt get to see him he was with his gf but the 2 weeks he was i was having huge not painic but like anxsiety attacks like nocking my own breath out randomly when i was thinking about him i couldnt stop shaking and it happened in school bathrooms i didnt tell anyone why or what happened anyways he left and we started talking a month later we were like friends and all chill then i said i cant fake like everything okay and i told him i couldnt forget about him and for him to tell me how he felt he said that he feel inlove and that he felt like i was his only girl like we were ment to be but i only liked him at tge time he was falling hard inlove with him i feel inlove later when i broke his heart i feel inlove cuase he made me be an amazing person and made me so happy perfect boyfriend we liked and had everything same colors and other thing but i feel inlove when it was to late he said he knew that he had to forget me and move on with he did but im not sure and i hate myswlf and he also said he starting to like me but i dont know if he means it cuase like i said he became a huge jerk but he had the sweet side of him and he change alot but i cant get over him. i need to but i cant.i hurt him so badly.broke his heart and agian and then i pushed him away after we just kinda got back to normal since he is in a different state i can only message him and i pushed him away one morning telling him he needs to forget me and that to remeber me as the heatless girl who broje his heart and was afraid of love or being love and said good bye then i couldnt stand it i need him to talk with me before i go and do something stupied so i made up a lie saying i got drunk and didnt know why i wrote that and im really sorry he didnt reply on read the message then i said can we just forget everything and be friends but thats in possable he didnt reply or anything and i hate my self i i should but i so deeply inlove with him whats wrong with me?

  14. What I am understanding from your post is that you fell in love with someone and he also loves you, but that your culture does not accept love marriage. You will have an arranged marriage in two years to someone else.You feel that you have let your parents down so you ended this relationship. You want to be a dutiful daughter, but your heart is in love. Can you speak with your parents about your feelings for this person? Would the man you are in love with be willing to talk with your parents? Is there a way that you can work out being together with the approval of both families? In the end it is your decision to make, but it seems heart wrenching to me. If your decision is to end the relationship with the man you fell in love with my advice is to cut all contact with him as hard as that is to do.

  15. I m suffering from sever anxiety nd depression ..my story is that i love someone nd want to marry him but his parents refused me and engaged him with other girl and he said me he can’t go against his parents because they are very sick but inspite of his engagement he wants to stay with me. .i couldn’t neglect him and i accepted .now I m suffering from sever anxiety as his marriage date is coming closer. He is doing his best for me to be happy but originally m not happy m dying from inside. .

    • Sweetie, let him go. You are a strong, self respecting woman and u deserve so much more than what your going through. I don’t know whats happened since u wrote your post, or how lo g it’s been but I hope and pray u find your inner strength to do what’s best for you. What if u got pregnant? And he’s marrying someone else? No please stop before he let’s you live in an ever worse situation.
      God bless you. X

  16. The explanation of heart and mind rings so true. I have been devastated since May because the man I was seeing for the past six years broke off our relationship for another woman. It was sudden. We had a wonderful night together and then he dropped by my house the next afternoon and dumped me. During the six years the relationship kept switching between just friends to more than friends. I loved him and kept thinking he’d fall in love with me. The part about a relationship not being good enough really resonates. It still hurts like hell. I so want the pain to end. I plan to sign up for the course ASAP – I need to come up with a spare $50. My work has fallen off due to being an emotional wreck. In the meantime I’ll be using the mini-lessons.

  17. my post is long sorry…

    Wow all your stories , I can sooo relate to every single person on here..
    I was with someone for 7 years .. I was hands down in deep love with this man.. something about him made me fall for him.. at first I wasnt even that attracted but in time something about him.. tall, dark features, was really good with his money, I fell for maybe the wrong things.. but ONE thing that was always there and WEIRD was his friendship with his ex.. we battled alot over her… he swore I was insecure and crazy and defended her … fast fwd she moves away and our core issues come to light like his drug abuse and womanizing ( the womanizing he denied and lied) ..

    after years of being gone his ex moves back from another state.. .and WEEKS later he acts weird towards me.. suddenly he breaks it off.. after us being so off and on and me finally putting my foot down only for him to run back to me…and PROMISE me he was dedicated to me.. he left me and wouldnt tell me why then finally i find out its over her.. 7 years together, he plans to get back with her behind my back and within 3 weeks of us breaking up she already had moved in.. it gets better 6 months after that she got pregnant. I spent years with this man emotionally supporting him being his everything through thick and thin..

    shattered doesnt begin to describe the emotions I felt.. betrayed, lied to , angry.. especially his disgusting behavior after it happened .. his attitude was very “get over it” “im happy now i got my life toghether finally with the girl i want your nothing” the last time we spoke was the day I found out literally in August of 2012.. so over 2 years I have not spoken to this man and / nor wIll I under any circumstance.. this sick part is this ex of his never wanted him and always played games and shenangins on him .. I always told him it ws bizarre and weird and he never cut ties with her because in retrospect he pined for her..

    but in time and healing I have gotten to a good place… its not linear though.. occassionaly I have my moments but i really have gotten to a place where i value me and my life and i woul dnever deal with that again ..
    a part of me wants him to suffer and hurt like he hurt me .. no humility or decency, he treated me rotten and always made me feel dumb and stupid.. im highly educated and treat others well, he was a drug user liar and its my own fault for getting caught up in the web…. forgiveness is the hardest obstacle….. sometimes i wonder does he feel bad? is he really happy with her??? does he think of me? i mean 7 years of course when u leave and immediataly have someone else its peaches but its not perfect and the honeymoon wears off quick…. but thank u everyone i like seeing im not the only one with these emotions

  18. It would’ve been 9 years this December. We’ve been together since I was 16 and he was 17. The start was rocky because we both were so young but our love was there. He proposed after a year, I said yes but didn’t want to get married yet because we were so young, promised him when we had our lives together that it would happen. We did everything together, he was my best friend. He told me he loved me every single day, that he missed me every single day, he always texted and called, never a day without talking to me. Always affectionate, always all over me. He said I was beautiful everyday. We planned our futures, kids, every single part. We were always together, we had so much in common. Just last year, a few days before Thanksgiving, when we just started to live together real serious lies and secrets were going on from his part. I found out because I went through his phone and computer and found pictures, text messages, hidden Facebook account, another cell, talking to his ex, other girls, things he’s been doing secretly for about 3-4 years. All the while I thought we were good, I thought we were growing up with each other. But he had a secret life that I didn’t expect at all. I was completely devastated. I broke up with him because he wouldn’t even be honest about everything he did. He broke my heart. While we were broken up, he reached out to me and we tried to work things out. Come January 3rd I decided to give him another chance, although the trust needed to be rebuilt. I love him, I wanted us to work. I had faith it would.
    It was hard, a lot of fights but I thought we were happy he told me he was happy. He told me he wants nothing more for me to have his kids, get married and grow old together, to continue our lives together. We decided to take a 3 month trip to Ecuador, he was born there, my parents are from there…we wanted to meet our future families and plan our wedding there. Our trip was great, he got sick, I was there for him, with him, taking care of him. I got sick and he did all the same. Still telling each other we loved one another every day, it was going so well. We were getting to know and grow with each other more and more every day. Our last week there, (this past week) I had a gut feeling he was hiding something and because of everything I found out last year, I couldn’t ignore it. I went through his messages and computer and found out once again he had been lying to me.
    My birthday was 27th of September and on the 26th, he was talking to his friend and said, I love my girl with all my heart but I can’t stop thinking out this one girl. Everytime we see each other, we both feel something but know we can’t act on it. Last time I saw her was New Years Eve, I bought her and her friends drinks for her birthday. I felt bad because I didn’t have much money on me to really show her a good time. I really feel like her and I are meant to be together. And when I have my things together, a good job, money saved up I’m going to look for her. I only hope that she isn’t married because I respect that, wouldn’t want cheating and wouldn’t want to break it up. But I really feel like thats who Im meant to marry.
    I read all of that. All of what he wrote the day before my birthday. He wrote it while he laid next to me in bed, telling me how much he loved me.
    My heart shattered. I left to my family’s house with all my stuff. I couldn’t stand to look at him. Our flight back to ny was incredibly hard, I asked for seat changes but still some him from a distance. He wouldn’t even look at me, let alone talk to me.
    Im back home, meanwhile we were suppose to go to our place.
    I’m devastated. I’m in pain. My heart is in my pain. I don’t know what to do anymore. I really loved him.

    • wow… thats some serious heart ache 🙁 i’m dealing with a relationship that only lasted a year and a few months.. but thats my longest relationship. We were like our own little family,started out with the same goals wanted the same things.. and somehow we drifted a part… her away from me more than i to her.. but god i miss her and its been over a month, I still love her.. and i think i always will.. After reading your story .. i feel for you.. i can’t possibly begin to imagine how you might feel.. i feel absoultely crushed.. and everytime i think i’m ok… its dawns on me…i don’t even WANT to stop loving her.. she even told me she doesn’t love me anymore.. its crushed me so bad i wanted to die… and i probably would of if i had it in me.. because at that point i felt so bad i couldn’t even imagine living another day without her..Emotions are stronger in some people i think… i mean i miss my dog.. and my cats and her daughter milly.. i’m gonna miss her birthday… and her opening presents at christmas.. and being daddy the easter bunny.. i can’t even write that.. without crying.. i think true love can only be found a few times in life.. i feel like i already had mine and now she doesn’t want me anymore… i just want to be able to show her for 1 day only the reason she fell in love me to begin with.

      • Hi Chris,
        Just weird, the date you wrote this and timeline it infers, we roughly lost ours girls at the same time and roughly same time together 1yr ishy.
        I am also confronted by what you have just described it’s like the same life. I also cannot stop crying. Heaven help us…..please

    • You deserve to have someone in your life who loves you as much as you love him. You deserve to not be cheated on, lied to and manipulated. You are a treasure and should be treated in your relationship as such. Do not accept less than what you deserve! If you let this relationship go it will be very painful for a while, but it will get better I promise. Another thing will happen as well it will allow your heart to open in time to someone who can and will treat you as you treat him with respect. This man does not want to be alone so he is holding onto you, because you are so wonderful to him and maybe he loves you, but YOU deserve honesty and fidelity from your intimate partner. This man you will never trust again. If you were to marry him it would effect the quality of the marriage so leave now and cut all contact. That is hard to do! Yes. You loved him and he hurt you through his deception and that is going to take time to heal, but I promise you will heal in time.

  19. Reading out your stories makes feel not alone. I feel so ashamed that I still feel for this man more than I feel for my husband who love me so much and has given me everything that I aspired for in life. I want desperately to love my husband the way I loved and still love him. I want to forget him. This seems so hard to do when I see him everyday at work. I cut all contact and communication with him after he allegedly proposed to remain my friend and then implicitly started to hint for a sexual relation at the same time bragging how happy and satisfied he was with his wife and family. My husband is good guy who loves me and I feel that I am completely faithful in my mind and heart there is still the old guy who did all the possible things to draw me away. What logic is this, letting myself feel this way and letting myself suffer everyday a huge pain for the completely wrong person struggling with avoiding him and looking at his eyes…

    • victoria, I have the same story like yours…the only difference that the man still said that he loves me but chose to stay with his wife. My husband has been supported me emotionally in everything and I feel guilty cause I still have feeling for the guy…it is so hard cause I am the one who back off from this relationship. If someone really loves you he will fight for you no matter what…but he just do nothing…..

    • Go back to your husband, love him, leave your job, do not tell your husband about the affair, there is no need to put your guilt onto him, you deal with it in your mind.
      Affairs are BS and hurtful, never ever do it again, that is your secret.

      • What you do in the dark will come in the light no matter What it is and u hiding it jus wrong of you. People makes mistakes but a real women own up to it .tell Your husband girly srry but how would u feel If he cheated on you n never told u n in years later when your love gotten deeper You found out.. You would be crush..no .carma is Real

    • I have been there and completely understand. Just know that in time it gets easier. Understand too that he will try to come back and apologize also. Understand that no matter what it feels like…your marriage is what is real. cling to it.

    • I would suggest therapy for yourself to help you to process through all of the complicated emotions that you are feeling right now. Our hearts do not always disconnect so easily, even when our mind understands that we have to. Quitting your job may not be a possibility for you when your family depends on your income. It may be wise however to look for employment elsewhere in order to remove yourself from having to see the man everyday. Wise advice Lee gave you. The only way to heal is to stop all contact and if you see him daily this can make healing very difficult for you. Also, remember to not accept less than what you deserve. This relationship with the man you work with is less than what you deserve.

  20. As I sit at work thinking how we good woman allow men to not once but constantly play with our emotions and then question ourselves when things go wrong. I was recently in a relationship with someone Ive been in love with for 10yrs. I took everything he told me as promises that our future would be together just for him show me how much I never meant to him. It hurts so much that I dont smile, dont answer the phone and wont talk to anyone about how I honestly feel. At times I look at my phone and tell myself to text him but then I realize that those messages mean nothing and nether did I to him. Even harder when you have a child with him and your stuck dealing with him. Prayer has become my best friend because man is this the worst feeling in the world.

    • Wow…i suppose i was meant To Read This. I am in exactly the Same boat. 10 years to the day. One child. I tries moving on but because of our child, he tries to make things difficult or he Always says or does something to get me to stay but they dont change. After 10 years, I might as well have Been locked up cos i Cant Tell You what I Been doing All This time

    • Hi Erica… how are you doing now? I’m still “getting over” my breakup but unsuccessfully. This man was HORRIBLE to me in that he’d make dates then not show up. He would disappear on the weekends. The final straw was on my birthday weekend, he made a date. I met him at his house but he never showed up. He turned his phone off. And, I didn’t talk to him for days after. That’s SO cruel. I guess I’m just feeling the void of not being a couple, not having companionship. I don’t miss the bad treatment. To cope, I had to re-read a letter I wrote to him (kept a copy for myself) to REMEMBER the bad times which negated the good times in the relationship. It’s crazy that I’m still on thinking, WHY did he have to treat me this way? WHY couldn’t this have worked. I can’t even pray… God just doesn’t act on my behalf. I feel that I’ve broken up with this man AND God!! What a shame!!!??!! I hope things are going better for you, than me!!!

  21. Hi, i couple with my bf 8 years. Starting our relationship very good and happy. Now he changes alot. He likes to hurt me , and give alot bad words . I told his problem to family. He not happy and he break up me. I just told him, i tell his family atleast you can changes. But he point i likes to make problem. What i should do, always said if i marry with you sure divorce . I loves him so much but i feel tension and crazy .

  22. This was a good read. I now understand why there is such a disconnect between head and heart. I dont care to tell my story except that their is that thing called “gut feeling” that we should all listen to more often.

  23. My boyfriend and I have been on and off for two and a half years. Our relationship is toxic; he treats me terrible and I in return do the same. My family is in a diff state. I have a couple friends out here and then I have him. He’s so jealous and I can’t say or do anything without him questioning me and calling me names. I can’t leave him, I’ve tried so many times. Tried to see other people and all I think about is him. I’m not myself anymore because I am always walking on eggshells. I’m more angry and stressed out than I’ve ever been. Idk what to do. I googled how I was feeling and found this. I’ve always gone from boyfriend to boyfriend. I don’t know how to be alone. I need to look for a second job and go back to school but have been putting it off because I’m so wrapped up in him. I’m unhappy, confused, lost….I just don’t know what to do anymore; how I can leave and stay gone. I need another job, school I just feel like I can’t. I have no idea where to begin, where to stop or where to stay.

  24. I am hurt beyond words, I am shaking from the inside out. Met the man of my dreams a couple years ago and fell head over heels for this guy. 10 or 11 mos in I found out he was married. I have been single for a long time 10 years…just the kids and I. And finally I meet someone. And every thing was a lie.I miss him so much. I miss the lies. My heart is aching. I can’t understand why he would come into my life and hurt me this way. All for what… I really loved him so much. I am reading through all these post trying to make some sense in this. And to know someone else is hurting like me hurts me more. I need someone to talk to. .. I am so lonely. I don’t want the kids to see me cry anymore. I know time heals every thing but right now I am suffering. I am reaching out to my Church for support and counseling. I can’t eat or sleep much less function. His wife and I had it out and the guilt, shame, and horror of this is killing me. I said some bad things to her. And it’s killing me. She was a victim n this and tempers went crazy. I need God’s presence n my life right now. I am so very lost. I mean just bc he was full of crap doesn’t mean my feelings weren’t real. I never wanna feel this way again. I want my heart to stop. There are no words for this. I have to keep moving forward. I am reminding myself to breathe. I knew telling her was the only way to end it. But now the guilt is has consumed me. He would always suck me back n and tell me they would sleep n dif rooms and we’re not intimate at all. I am hurting. Someone pls tell me some things to do to make it hurt less

    • I am so very sorry. I hope after a few months, things have gotten easier for you. I am going through it too. There’s no magic word I can say to make it better, but sometimes, when I’m crying alone, I yell out all the anger I feel. It seems to temporarily dull the pain. It’s easier to move on for me if I’m angry with him instead of missing him. When we hit rock bottom and are so broken, we can only go up from there. Your kids, hope & strength will get you through this, I promise.

    • Wendy
      too am dealing with a broken heart 4.5 yr relationship a guy I work with. Both of us married but the connection started as friends and both of us had so much on common that we were missing in our marriage. We vowed our love after a yr together exchanging rings and promises. I having 3 children not as flexible to time we could spend together so we would take time away from our jobs during the day. His wife works weird hours first aand 2nd shift so he would make me feel bad if I would not make time during the hours his wife was at work. I did I gave up time from my kids for him. I loved him to do anything I could. During our relationship he told me about other relationships he had had but would tell me in was the love of his life and there was no one else for him we were perfect we rented am apartment to have as our place but I noticed things were changing with him I noticed he became secretive and would get angry if I questioned him he even gave me a conclusion 12 staples in my head and said he did it because I put my hands on him never to hurt him only to touch him. I forgave him ffor what he did. He told me many times his wife caught him cheating and she forgave him because she couldn’t stand on her own without him and she loves him after a while I became obsessed and panic of what I felt I knew he had to love me or he wouldn’t say the things and the passion we shared but I just felt his secrets or private life were more than a night with the guys. I noticed at our apartment the bottle of wine and wine bottle was missing along with.the KY gel. I then sew the KY back in his bag and I couldn’t take it so I made comments to him he said he toke it home to use with his wife and the wine he threw out since it was not the kind I liked. I guess I am a fool I wanted so much to believe him. I kept notes on my calendar the days he was gone for extended times so it was getting clear to me. I knew his patterns so well that when I saw him leave on day from work in followed him and he was at the liquor store. He insisted I go back to work. I knew what he was doing. That afternoon when he was not at the gym his wife working 7 pm to 7 am I began calling hotels and YES the one we had our very first meeting confirmed he was there gave me his name so off I go my heart beating out of.my chest racing I wanted to die buy I wanted him to know and see me. I get to the hotel a dress on and didn’t even put on my shoes go to the counter and pretend it is me who is to meet him b they call his room and he refuses I beg the girl and she gave me his room number he would not.let me in. I sob as the front desk clerk said.he asked them to call the police. She consoles me tells me I very pretty and can tell I a.professional. all I could think and I told her was he has been with another woman in that room hus.wife is at work and I am a fool sobbing and my heart killing me over him. I live him I tell her. I get in my car before the police if she called and I don’t think she did I head back and he.calls.me of course it was all me for.coming.there he said.i pushed him to her he needed a friend and they had only been together 2 times. As I type this his wife working and I am still in love with him. I want to tell his wife I hate this so much! I hate he has ripped me apart. I feel your pain!!

      • You have to be strong for yourself and your kids you have to be a role model honey you falling in love with a man with a wife no telling how many other women he has if a man loves you.. you would be his only …you need to tell his wife if not already sorry but you n Your kid’s deserve better

    • I am in the same boat as you. My kids do not understand why i am crying all the time. I never could understand how you can can go from happy to devastation within hours. My ex also lied to me. I had to go to the dr because i was making myself phycally ill. i haven’t had no contact with him in three weeks. I get up everyday and i try to not think about it and put one foot in front of the other. On the inside i am dying. I have no friends and the ones i thought i had are so happy i can’t stand to be around. i feel myself closing up.

  25. I fell in love with a cheater 7 years ago, he was married though I was not aware and had a girlfriend when I met him. We lived 700 miles away from one another. He eventually got a divorce and moved in with the girlfriend in my area. He hid it from me. She contacted me initially and told all. Yet, I could not let go. I allowed him to hurt me deeply. Yes, I allowed, it was his fault the first time and my fault after that. I lost everything, I quit my job to move to Florida with him knowing he really did not want me there. He moved back there 2 years ago and I find out last month after my 3 attempt to move there and make it work, that he has been cheating with multiple others since moving back and continue to do so. He has done and said some terrible humiliating things to me. I sit now in pain that would not wish on my worst enemy. And the kicker, he keeps contacting me, as always trying to draw me back in, saying he loves me. Yet in the end after I quit my job and spend money moving there, he does not want a relationship!! When I won’t allow he to stay in life as a “friend”, he turns on me and acts nasty and cruel. He is the most spoiled, selfish, user I have ever dealt with. How can you be a friend after all the lies, betrayal, deceit and cheating? He is really narcissistic, it was always all about him and what he wanted not caring who he hurt to get it. Oh forgot to say I found out after 3 years of knowing him, he cheated on his wife and had a baby by another woman, and not the girlfriend he had in my area. What a fool I was for love…….But I will heal and be stronger than ever. Thanks for sharing everyone, it let’s me know I’m not alone….peace and healing

  26. I have been in a relationship for 12 years. Hes 39 & I’m 30. Throughout our relationship & most intensively over the past coming on 8 years our individual insecurities & my struggles w communication have hindered our growth to the point that we have become so co-dependant in all the wrong ways.hes had his indiscrepencies left and came back, threatened to leave but stayed. I’m essentially the breadwinner. He’s an artist so his $ ebbs and flows. That’s put added pressure on our relationship. We both harbor resentment. Ive never cheated on him. Nor left. I’ve been in and out of therapy over the past few yrs & stop as soon as things level out some. I think we’re at a crossroads. We’re both spent from fighting. He’s told me im nof gd for him, I dont make him happy, im selfish etc. Says very hurtful demeaning things. Ive heard it so much for so long that it doesnt hurt and now im just numb to it. We have lacked an intimate, sexual relationship. I have a hard time trusting him esp when he threatens to leave. Thing is, I know his insecurities come into play despite his tactful ways of masking them. Hes projected and equated his failed relations w his parents onto our relationship, which amplifies everythinv emotionally. Its sounds like he just wants yo give up on me. He says he’s lost faith in me, says I’m a liar, an ugly person, selfish, that he deserves more etc.

    I know my issues and where I’ve contributed to faults with us. Call me a drunken optimist.but I’m not ready to give up on him or us. Hes also bipolar, adopted and has had abandonment issues… I used to believe that I had to fix everything. He says I was supp. to be the one who showed him that someone gives a fuck. I’m contemplating everything and trying to take things in stride…your input is appreciated.

  27. Hello everyone.
    I need some help.
    A few months ago my bf and I broke up and was seeing someone (we’ve been together for 2years and 7 months.
    He broke up with me and I accepted because of course you need two in a relationship to care for one another. So of course I agreed. Soon then since I was a single woman and was ready to move on I decided to talk to guys. To make me feel better and make new friends. (This was the next day) and that night he (my ex) calls me, he was crying and when ever I replied with a no I’ve already moved on you could tell he would choke on his words. At this point I knew I still loved him. My heart was screaming “Yes! I love you I don’t care about what happened I love and need you!” But my brain said “he’s an idiot! Look at what he did! He’s only going to do it again! ” weirdly I accepted his begging and to be honest he has tried to fix everything between us. He changed his # he is actually trying to make me happy like when we first started dating . But the thing is…. I think I’ve fallen out of love with him. I don’t really care what he does anymore… Could that heart break he made me go through be the cause of that? What should I do?!

    • I think you’re right, you’re not in love with him anymore. When one person doesn’t care about the other person that’s not a good sign, you might still feel affection for him since your heart told you to take him back which is understandable since you two were together a while and obviously had good times and memories but no it sounds like you really did move on and no longer really truly love him.

    • Hi there!

      I’m so sorry to hear about your loss. I can’t imagine what pain it must inflict on you, and how much of a struggle it is.

      I would just like to give you some advice, because like the article said, any type of confirmation or reassurance will help.

      You say that you were aware of the fact that your relationship was over, and now it’s just dealing with the consequences that is creating heart ache. It’s so great that you’re already admitting the fact that it was over. This tells me you are already a step in the right direction.

      If you knew it was over, maybe it’s a wise decision for you to start writing down all the negative aspects about the relationship. Not so much necessarily about your partner, but things about the relationship between the two of you that just didn’t work for whatever reason. I can imagine this is hard, because a relationship of 7 years is long and you have many good memories. However, it’s a common thing to, after a break up, only remember the good parts. Start writing down the bad ones, in order to keep yourself from romanticizing the reality of things.

      Secondly, I’d like to advice you, that you shouldn’t want to ”forget all those years”, realistically that is not going to happen: you will remember things you don’t want to and you’ll forget things you wish you’d remember, and that’s okay. It’s not so much about forgetting and then moving on, it’s about being able to accept what’s happened, the good and the bad, and giving it a place in your heart and mind that you feel comfortable with. If you’re forcing yourself to forget, you’re constantly going to struggle with your own mind and heart, and the only thing that will enable you to let go in the end, is a complete acceptance of what has happened. This takes time, accept that too, and embrace it.

      Furthermore, I do recommend you to see a therapist. Taking the step to do so, is nothing but brave, as you’re consciously deciding to stop being a victim, and deciding rather to be the hero of your own story. Take power of your own happiness, how hard that might seem right now, and find a balance and acceptance in your life that will enable you to have an immense faith of a life that you desire.

      I wish you all the best and strength to persevere. You deserve happiness and love, start with yourself, and you will find it!

  28. Last week, on my birthday, my boyfriend said that he doesn’t love me anymore after 4,5 years relationship. I never imagine this would be happen before. Feels like the sky fall right on my head. I thought that our relationship is perfect, fine, flawless. I don’t know why he can feel like that. I start can’t think straighly, my heart was hurt so much pain i felt. I often beong blank n crying out loud blaming myself. Even i already begging him but he won’t budge at all. I still hanging on my hope on him. Anybody can tell n suggest me what should i do?

    • it will be ok…just know you are not alone…and the pain will heel…..find something you wanted to do that during the relationship didnt have time to do ….do something big….your life has changed you change with it …become a better you for you and the people that really matter

      • I was in love once back then 4 years ago when I dated Stephanie my ex- GF who like me had Asperger’s Syndrome. I haven’t dated a woman since then, and wondered for 2 years where did I go wrong. Of course I later got the gut feeling that her friggin Mother was the cause of our breakup again. I was good to her but her damn mother never makes anything easier for her. Her mother has never had an ounce of faith in her one bit, and has on a leash if you know what I mean. I feel for Stephanie cause she’s 26 years old and still under the control of her mother.

        Oh whatever forget her anyway. I’ll move on and I know there’s someone out there some gamer chick with Asperger’s Syndrome like me. Time to move on .

    • I know how you feel, my Girlfriend of a year and a half just broke up with me when things were at there best because she doesn’t want to be in a relationship in general. It hurts terribly and I’ve found that just crying it out is helping a lot, another thing that’s helped me through this was writing a letter and not sending it, type up a quick letter in Microsoft word explaining how he made you feel and how you’ve been betrayed by him etc. but don’t send it, and whenever you feel like getting back with him read it and realize that you don’t really want him back. I hope you feel better and know that there are people out there who care for you.

    • seems like we are in the same boat… same time in relationship.. same feeling i have right now…. but dont blame yourself… its his lost.. not yours…. hang in there sister…. we get through it….

  29. Samantha says:
    June 15, 2014 at 11:36 am
    Okayy, so my ex and I dated a month the first time. Then 7 months later (May 3, 2013), we reunited and made it work a little over a year. He said he needed to be alone. So I did that. I left him alone, even though it hurt.Two weeks later, while he was returning my stuff, we talked and laughed like everything was okayy. 3 days later, he shows up at my house. He said he wanted to hang out and take me for a drive in his new truck. He told me that during the two weeks, he tried to date another girl, but was miserable because he wanted me! After working everything out,we got back together. But only for two and a half weeks. He then said he just cant stay happy, and the best way to figure himself out would be to be alone. He said we can still be friends and maybe someday more than friends. I am just so lost. Could i still mean alot to him? Could he still love me? Im scared he may be dating again. I dont know what to think, we havent talked. I want him back! Hr always said his favorite thing about our relationship is That we dont give up easy.Somehow after every breakup we have, wr always come back.. but i dont know now. Could he come back? I’m gonna wait on him to talk to me first. But what if he is dating? The same girl he dated in the two weeks. If he dates, i know i cant say anything because we aint together. Would that be wrong of him. Im so confused. Help? Thanks!

    • Hi Samantha!

      Wow, that really sounds like a turbulent relationship and a struggle. I’m sorry you’re going through such a hard time.
      However, I’m going to be very frank with you, and the question that immediately pops into my mind is: Why?
      Why would you consciously decide every time that you deserve this?
      Because you love him?
      I get it, I have been in the same situation, but what I’ve figured out is that if you end up being completely unhappy, confused and lost because you are fighting to keep a love alive, then you are missing a crucial thing in your own life: self love.

      Maybe this sounds silly to you, but in order to love someone else and to let someone love you in a healthy and beautiful relationship, you must love yourself first.

      Please please get out of this situation. I know it’s hard and you want to hold on because you feel like he gives you things that no one else can but you’re wrong. You deserve so so so much more!!!

      The fact that your guy is constantly running away from you, and returning whenever he pleases is really wrong. He obviously needs to learn a thing or two about how to treat women and relationships in general, and it’s horrible that he’s doing this to you.
      However, even though he might be making mistakes in this, so are you. Because you’re letting him! By enabling someone to treat you like this, you open yourself up for more and more pain. You need to start taking responsibility for your actions and behavior, and most of all, your happiness.

      To me it seems that by allowing him to hurt you and treat you so bad, and you still letting him come back every time, you decide every single time NOT to be happy.

      Instead, make decisions that will bring you closer to you, gain self respect and accept that what’s happened is okay, but you can now grow from it and start loving yourself!

    • I’m going through the same thing you are. I just got my heart broken. It hurts a lot. Im confused too. Its hard when the guy breaks up with and gets back together with you. and it keeps going on that way. It’s really hard.

  30. I’ve never loved anyone the way I love my husband, I’ve never did the things I do for him for anyone. For the last year I have been dealing with so much pain from so many different things that have happened that leads to him cheating, I always believed him and just tried harder for our marriage to work, the way he treats me and the things he does proves he doesn’t love me, and inside I know he doesn’t love me anymore, but I can’t think of my life without him, but I know I don’t deserve this. It’s by far the worst pain I have ever dealt with. I don’t know what to do anymore!

    • I am in the same situation you are in after 15 years of marriage. I am in so much pain sometimes I just can’t function. I tell him to divorce me and go to her but he says he don’t want a divorce that he does love me and the lies have been piling up for over a year with this same skank he is cheating on me with. I know I should leave him but my heart won’t let me and my head says I will be hurting even more without him. He means so much to me and for the most part treats me good except when he has seen her or has talked to her then he is very mean to me and not at all the loving husband I married 15 years ago. I just don’t know what to do anymore either! :'(

      • I am going through the same thing you are except my husband kicked our daughter and I out of the house so his girlfriend of a year a and a half could move in. I had known about her for about seven months but he said he wasn’t seeing her anymore. In my heart I knew better. It hurts so bad but if he can do that to his wife and his child, I am better off alone than with him. He was planning on his girlfriend moving in nine months before he finally kicked us out.

        From my experience, leave. He is no good and he will not change.

      • Leave his ass! You don’t deserve that, you have stayed loyal and if he can’t do that he doesn’t truly respect you, you don’t repeatly hurt someone you truly love

  31. i shared the first and only relationship of my life with him.. i was 16 when we indulged into love.. since then, i had always loved him more than anyone.. but the fate was something else.. but then things changed..to our misfortune, we broke up after 7 years of relationship because his parents and family were not willing to get us married.. the moment was disastrous.. he couldn’t convince his family.. he didn’t fight over the issue and decided to get separate.. i respected his decision and we took different paths.. after 2 years of struggle with the new yet the unwelcomed life , i somehow managed to come out of the trauma and agreed to put feet into an arranged marriage.. i got married.. the next year, he also got married with the girl of his parent’s choice.. its been seven years that i am married, mother of a lovely boy.. he has also got a beautiful daughter.. but something happened with him in this meantime of 7 years.. his parents disowned him on behest of their daughter and son in law.. consequently he debarred from his ancestral property.. in the aftermath of this, his existing wife is creating problem for him since he has no ryt on the property.. although he earns handsome amount of money to lead a comfortable and respected life, yet the greed of the wife and the trauma of betrayal from his family is torturing him.. he disclosed this all to me just a week back.. he messaged me on my mail and said that he committed the biggest mistake of his life by not fighting for me, by not putting pressure on his family to accept me, by not leaving everything else behind just to have me.. he apologized for everything he did knowingly or unknowingly.. he said that he didn’t change his number through all these years just in the hope that someday i might call him.. the number that he was carrying since he got his first cellphone 15 years ago.. he said he wants to reverse the time so that he can rectify his mistakes.. and he wanted me to call him and talk to him over phone.. i denied as in my opinion its not ryt for the sake of my family.. my husband who gave me so much love and affection that somehow i managed to cover the old memories..
    he kept on messaging me his ordeal and that he still loves me.. i said him that we both are family persons now and its not ryt to think of anything now.. he said he don’t want me to cheat with my family and come back in his lyf.. all he wanted is to remain in his contact.. he just want that i read his messages and reply.. but for me, its quite an uncomfortable situation.. all these years i missed him, i missed all the memories that we shared, and every other thing that we experienced together.. it was the love and care of my husband that these emotions never overruled my mind and personality..
    so i tried to make him understand this and stopped opening my mail account..

    now the dilemma is, i m feeling very restlessness.. very uneasiness.. because my mind and heart is just thinking of him.. every second i m missing him.. sometimes the heart says, let him communicate u, then mind says NO.. i dont know whether i have done ryt or not.. i dont even know what should i do to console myself..

    • Don’t do it. Either you will end up having the same feelings as him or you will give him false hope. He is probably lonely but it is important that you not get involved for your child and your husband’s sake.

    • This is such a painful situation. I’m not sure what you ended up doing, but I would strongly suggest you talk to your husband about this, and not keep it a secret, because logic can fly out the window when feelings are involved. Your husband may not be happy to hear about this (I mean, you wouldn’t be either) but I strongly believe your partner in life should be your best friend. He may not understand it, but if he’s a mature man, he will understand how hard this must have been for you to open up to him with, and make him trust you. You will also have to be patient with him.
      Your first love might always have a place in your heart, but he left you whwn he had everything. He had to lose everything to understand your value…which would have been ok of you werw single. Your husband saw your value without having to learn the hard way. You may end up in the same position your ex is in if you give in to temptation, so pleasw choose your actions wisely, love. What ever you do, do it with honesty and integrity…I wish you the absolute best. I hope you find your peace <3

    • If this man really loved you, he wouldnt be contacting you and confusing you all these years later, burdening you with all of his issues. I feel sorry for him, but he didn’t fight for you, and he should have. You didnt fight for him either, and now you have a loving husband and a child, it will be hard but you need to break contact with him.

      I feel sorry for him, he is obviously unhappy, but you are in a good relationship and he is doing the wrong thing confusing you like this.

      If you are sure you wont be leading him on, or confusing yourself more, then contact him to ease his sadness, but Id not advise it.

  32. Thank you, I really needed to read this, I’m an emotional wreck since last night, I guess ignorance is bliss after all, I just can’t believe this happened to me, but for my bad luck I fell in love with a cheater.
    I don’t know, I need to let it all out, I cried till I puked, my eyes burn from the tears and he doesn’t even care, I want him to hold me and kiss me, but at the same time I want to slap him and tell him that I hate him for hurting me so much…

    • I was in a 5 year relationship (living in one roof) after our break up (last year-officially October 2014 but initially April 2014) I thought I cant get up. suddenly I felt that the earth and the sky torn me in between. I don’t want to say anything against someone I love the most or against myself, coz i’ve been that and really regret it. if you tell that he/she is like that and blah-blah, it will not change situation you just ruin yourself. If you truly love someone you will bear the pain, you will take the cross, you still think what’s morally and logically right. I love him so much and though deep inside my heart i’m dying. im struggling to move on and asks God guidance , btw. im not very religious person but on that time this open a door for me to start knowing Jesus, to starts knowing God. The pain was unbearable and Im actually thinking to end my life (im alone, I am in orphaned and I don’t have family beside me im working abroad) but the spirit to do what is right took over. So I cried out loud to God and asked his strength to restore me. Since I love this guy I just couldn’t hate and pointing a blame on hi instead I poured out my understanding and love. So what I was thinking there’s a divine purpose for all of the struggles and pain. I continue searching and try to improve the things that I need to change and building my character. I controlled my emotions coz I don’t want the pain and my brokenness ruin my character. everyday is a struggle coz I don’t want my predicament would affect the people around me and my working environment. life goes on and every night I was crying, im still continue searching the meaning of life and ask God to change me the way he wanted me to be… I ask myself this question. if i will teach myself to hate him and not forgive him and not to forgive myself, what can I get? nothing but continues nightmare. We cant change the situation, we can only change the way we respond in our challenges. Pain is a process don’t ever, ever try to short cut it.

      • I really feel for y, ur situation is a close comparison. I am an orphan to but I’m lucky to have two sons. I’m going through a terrible break up. It mostly reflects me and my pain tho. I know he was really bad for me but like most narcissists he fooled me well. And he was French and sexy lol but now I find him repulsive (sort of fooling myself) only had a text conversation with him last night where he was being nice about breaking my heart,, “saying one day we’ll look back and say I’m glad ur my friend” lol omg what a load of bollocks!!
        Anyway my motto ” onward and upward,, get to steppin any guy that doesn’t treat me right” needless to say I only adopted that message fully today. Feel the emotions and ride with it, otherwise u can’t move on…
        Wishing u all the best x

    • Stay strong. I know it’s hard now but trust me you’ll get through it. The best way is to cut off any contact, block them from everything, block and delete anything that will remind you of a memory and leave you feeling sad. You deserve so much better even if your heart still hurts. I’ve been hurt for 6 months now after the breakup of almost 3 years. Completely changed and he decided he wanted to “explore” other girls. Complete asshole.

    • Hey I want to tell you it gets easier, but I am not sure I can. My first relationship five years ago was with a cheater and he never really left my life. I was completely in love with him, eventually I moved on and dated an amazing guy for three years that I never deserved. My first bf and I dated frequently when we were not with other people. Hes cheated again. I called it quits for real, permanently quite recently and my advice is find someone who makes you feel safe and happy and wonderful and never go back to your ex no matter how in love you feel with him.

      im still very sorry that it happened to you.

    • I’m sorry that you are going through this. I ended a relationship with a cheater too but it hurts me more than I have ever hurt before. I can’t stop crying and I don’t know why. It took me 2 years to have sex with him (he told me he was single at that time) and when we did, we had sex for about 5 hours…it was incredible…we continued to have a sexual relationship for about a year until I bumped into him and his wife and kids in a restaurant…yup, imagine my surprise….I deleted his number and forgot about him…I was hurt and never got over him or dated anyone else…then 3 years later I contacted him and we had mind blowing sex…I knew he was living with someone and had a kid with her but continued to be with him because I loved the times together…then he was too busy to have sex with me and weeks turned into months…I found out he was seeing another woman on the side so I ended it because my heart could not take it…im devastated because he was the complete package and I thought somehow he would fall in love with me but it didn’t happen and I got out before he could dump me first…I didn’t want to do it but had to, to save my pride and self respect…Im so heart broken but figure if he does this to me then he will do it to the new girl….I just appreciated the great sex that’s all and he was soo sweet and attentive and not to mention HOT..lol….anyway, you too will get over it….the funny thing is my ex husband cheated on me and left me for the other women…so I lost out either way as the wife and the other woman….it really is sad but what can we do if we are attracted to cheaters…as my best friend told me…you play with fire your going to get burned…and I did and it hurts soo bad…you will feel better but don’t count on it too soon…im trying to find a way to process it but having a hard time….I;m sorry that you are going through this, I know its hard but you have to rationalize and think about what it is making you hurt and weight the pros and cons…the way I see it…if he is cheating on his girlfriend or wife with me and now someone new…IF he was ever with me, he would do the same because guys like that are never happy with just one woman…so hang in there you are going to be just fine…I have learned my lesson in that nomatter how much potential a man may seem to have, if he is cheating on someone now, he will eventually cheat on you and it will continue…once a cheater, always a cheater….good luck and I hope you feel better soon…

  33. I broke up with my boyfriend of 1 year and 3 months less than a week ago, so everything is still fresh. It was so painful and bittersweet. We both are having such a difficult time letting go because there wasn’t resentment in the cause of the break up. We just accepted the fact that we wanted different things in life and it’s something we both cannot compromise on. The break up was fairly mutual. Even though I brought it up, he told me somewhere in the back of his mind, he knew this day was coming soon. We didn’t really want to face the truth because we cared so much for each other.

    I don’t know what to do in this situation. We broke up without resentment (not much, even if there was), we still care very much about each other, letting go was extremely difficult (on the day of the talk, we spent half a day just being together for the last time, ending with a really long hug). Another problem is that we share LOTS of mutual friends. These we friends we already had, prior to the relationship. Now that we’ve broken up, even though everyone knows what happened and there’s no choosing of sides, we are avoiding each other so blatantly it hurts. It has made things so awkward for us. We’re all friends but now he and I have this boundary that we cannot break. If we start giving the slightest attention, he and I will break and make moving on so much more difficult.

    The thing is, there are a lot of changes happening in my life right now but he was my stability and my home. I long to talk to him, to at least know anything about him, even though I know it poisons my process of moving on. What can I do.. I can’t just cut him off totally, not when our lives are so close together.

  34. I was caught in a self-destructive relationship cycle for 6 months. I tried to break up with her 4 times throughout the relationship, but she continually guilt-tripped me into getting back with her as she threatened to kill herself if I left her. Everyday I would wake up kicking myself that I wasn’t strong enough to break up with her. Being with her was toxic for me and the relationship was based on manipulation and fear. I knew that I had to break it off with her but my heart was worried for her safety if I did, as she was adament she would commit suicide if I left. I broke up with her about a month and a half ago. We had somehow transitioned to being friends and I was relieved she wasn’t suicidal. Unfortunately we both realised we were still attracted to eachother and decided to be friends with benefits. This worked until I discovered one morning after I woke up in her bed that I had to quickly leave because she had another woman coming over in an hour! This was 5 weeks after we had broken up! I was really hurt and have since been waking up in tears and having very limited sleep because my brain keeps overthinking everything. I never thought I would be the jealous clingy type at all, but I’m scaring myself as I’m realising that I am! Now that there is someone else in her life, she ignores me more and spends her time with this other woman! It feels like I’ve been punched in the stomach everytime I think about it, and I feel sick and like I’m always on the verge of tears. It just hurts because she’s moved on so quickly and I’m the one grieving. I broke up with her because logically I knew the relationship was unhealthy. But I still cared fir her very much and we would still text everyday. I think I may have confused the friends with benefits arrangement with a relationship as it still felt like one when I was with her. And it feels like she’s cheating on me even though I know we are not together anymore. I’ve got myself into a bizarre and complex situation and I don’t know how to get out or what to do…

  35. I want to move on with my husband of 41yrs but really dont think I can as much as I would love to. Especially for my adult children. We had such a tulmultuous relationship for most of our married life while trying to raise and love my (our) children. The fighting, cursing, and demostrating so much wrong in our lives. They seem to be so pleased to see us together and “happy” finally. I dont want to hurt them again I just need to forgive and forget so all of us can heal. But our marriage was hell. We were only married for 2years but it was so ugly I left, he hated me for doing that. I met someone who really cared about me and wanted to be with my and my 2yr old son, so so so much more that my dh did.(that hurt like hell too how he never wanted to be a father and thought nothing was wrong with that) it was only emotional for me, however he moved on and was cheating with another woman. I only just found out, as I left for the last time last year. There was nothing good about us except sex and then that stopped too, he lost his libido. I researched ed but I only annoyed him with wanting to “be” with him at least in that way. Not anything that was important to him. He just let himself go and we had “NOTHING” with each other for 5 years I begged him to please love me care about me want to be with me, anything. There was still nothing there. I tried so hard. Finally I said “Joe I am leaving, for good this time” all he said was do what you have to do, so I did. Met a very nice gentleman on our time. When my dh found out that, I was serious and found someone else, he freaked and once again almost had another heart attack. He cursed me accused me of F’ing him nothing else. But once again it was just a very good friendship we formed with each other. Well finally when no matter what I said, he didnt believe me. Finally I thought wait a second, did you ever cheat on me and hear comes the grand finale, he did. And it was 40yrs ago. All that hell I lived with him my children as well could have been avoided. Unfortunately, or fortunatley we were back together stronger than ever. But I cannot move on, the pain and hurt is eating me alive. one last note, he would always threaten me with getting it somewhere else if I didnt give him what he wanted all the time. Oh and another time he hurt me incredibly, was he came home to only tell me that he passed a girl in a black bikini with a flat tire, I just so happened to look like *!**! Now he expects me to believe him he only told me that to compliment me that he passed her up becaus he had me at home waiting!! HELP!

  36. Ive been with my girlfriend for three years…weve lived together for almost two..she is leaving. My brain says weve been here before, things will get better. But my heary is committing hirikiri and its unbearable. I will miss her so much. I cant imagine how i ever got through this before..im so comfortable the thought if it ending and havng to recreate what my life looks like terrifies me. I want her to hold me tight so i wont be paralyzed with fear and mourning. I crave her in my heart, i know its time to let her go in my head. I dont know how to find the courage to go through this again….i dont know how to be alone.

    • you already know what to do. you’ve already made your decision. Your pain is coming from the part of you that never wanted to make that decision. I will not validate that part of you. no one will validate that part of you, if you are alone. seeing truth hurts. what does it feel like, though, if you never new truth?

      being wrong, when you don’t realize you’re wrong, feels like being right.

      be alone and feel what it is like. just to see what you don’t know…

  37. This is all so true… and still, after being through so much, waiting so long (7 yrs) for the right one to come along, I was helpless under his kiss, had no will of my own once I felt his sweet breath on my neck and felt his hand in my hair for the most passionate kiss you’ve ever had, and you’ve had a few. Oh my friends, what we won’t do for love… even after we’ve handed our hearts over only to have it stomped to a million tiny peices, over and over, still with hope in our hearts we do it again, lay our heart out, and yest again to be stomped on yet again – because you tell yourself even if it doesn’t work out, that the experience of having this person still in your life to hold and love, hoping that sweet guy you fell for is still in there somewhere. I said even while we were still together that if I got hurt, it would be worth it. This man was so special to me that even though I knew I’d most likely get hurt, having him in my life for however long we had, would be worth the pain once it’s blown up in my face and is over. And just a few short months later, here I sit with my freshly broken heart, I’m here to tell you that it really IS worth it. I might be willing to risk more now that I know I’m sick and without a lung transplant I could have anywhere from a few days to a few decades even. But we only get this one life, one chance, choose to live and love. I can tell you personally after going so long without love, because I was so afraid of getting hurt again, that I think it’s better to have loved and lost, and felt alive during that time and loved and desired, than to stay alone out of fear of getting hurt, thinking it’s more important to protect your heart and feel nothing than to feel so much that you leave your heart vulnerable to getting hurt again. Go one, live a little. You only live once. Don’t sit home alone protecting your heart. Go out and feel, fall in love. We usually don’t get the advantage of knowing how much time we’re going to have. Any one of us could die tonight even – the plane we’re on could just disappear and not be found, or we could have a fatal car accident, or anything could happen. But getting hurt is part of life. It’s just part of living, and untill we’re not breathing any longer, we should all be living life to the fullest. Live, love, laugh, cry, be part of life while you have the chance. Because you only live once.

  38. we were together for 17 months …n suddenly he said..we should get separated..we had fights but not like other people…we always respected each odr…n suddenly this days he is just not the way he was..he was madly in love with m and now it seems that he never even know me..i m really not able to forget him..i cry everyday..i love him madly..he is a little hippie person..i dont know what is going in his head….but now i m completely fucked up in ma mind..i really need to noe wat is wrong ..what is he thinking…n if not that..den temmme how shud i just delete all d memories..cz i noe i wont b able live lk dis.

  39. I know I’m not the only person who has experienced my pain. But it’s so hard seeking guidance when things between my ex and I are much more complicated than most. It’s not a ” I knew things weren’t right” black and white situation. I can’t decide whether or not I was dating a sociopath. I’m a very blunt and transparent woman, but when deceived, hell could be raised. Both of us had been sexually assaulted at different parts of our lives. Me, I was assaulted at 17 drugged and as a result my virginity was taken. He on the other hand was molested at a young age by a family member(not of blood) . But only came to tell me this after finding out that over almost 4 years he made out with 6 women and had sex with one during our relationship. This is a man who was 10 years older than me that moved to my city to date me after 3 months meeting on vacation. Prior to this years went by where he wooed my family and friends. Amazingly beautiful inside and out ( I’m talking movie star pretty). After I found out about those other women I broke up with him. After about of a year of him moving around and attempts to prove his love for me I let him move back. Where, after his persistence, he convinced me to date again. This time everything was what I wanted in the first place. I won’t play it like I was an angel before, there were internal emotional issues and torment I let out on him during our previous relationship. And though how fiery I got he never said a foul word to me. Though I understand his cheating, I do not condone it. So I convinced a friend to hire him on a film I was working on, and things were still great. Getting to see him during lunches and us being so excited to find each other at home after a 12-15 hour day. Then he gets another job with the same people on another project three hours away . He comes home to see me every weekend, so excited . Until one day, literally after just spending thanksgiving with my family a week prior, he’s absolutely cold- that weekend I had an extremely rare occurrence of triggering my trauma when we watched a certain film- I separated myself because I didn’t want to hurt him. Which I guess was too overwhelming for him. Not thinking that his foul mood had anything to do with me when I visited him the following weekend(because he’d always go through these moods about every 3-6 months) and he was terrible at communication in general, I didn’t see the train coming. All of a sudden a day after I leave to travel to see my dying grandfather he says he found someone that made him feel like the day he met me. 5.5 years had gone by at this point. He’s now living with her, because he was just literally living with me. And he keeps trying to come back and tell me that he’s only attracted to me but tells me that he chooses her. I know I can’t go back. I would never trust him again. But can anyone give me insight? Someone who maybe in the same boat of dating a possible sociopath? He’s not a terrible person, I know this for a fact. But he keeps hurting himself as it’s almost a punishment he feels he deserves. Waste of 6 years, just trying to make sense of anything.

  40. I’ms struggling with scenario 1, during the relationship. My head and heart are at each other. My head says, get out now, I’ve got the support, he’s not what I want any more, I’ve tried my best, I’ve tried to make it work and in the last few weeks it’s just not been working any more. He’s been unresponsive, he doesn’t even kiss me any more, I have to beg for physical contact.

    We moved into our own place 4 months ago, on an 12 month lease contract.
    If he moves out, he’d still pay towards it, because we cant cancel the lease midway through, it would be difficult, but it”s the only way.
    I’d miss him terribly, but I know I’d get over it and find someone more suited.
    We did break up for about two weeks midway in our relationship, and within a few days he’d slept with someone else, and I saw them walking hand in hand, but we got back together after I begged him for a second chance (idiot I know)… and he told her, that we (me and him) had too much history to throw it all away.

    Anyway, my heart is saying, despite the begging of a better attitude on my part to him, and attempts at salvaging what we have with planned date nights and days out – that I should stay, because eventually my nagging will kick in and we’ll be happily married with babies and dogs.
    He’s worrying about money a lot at the moment, and he starts a new job soon! So maybe things will change and I should just hang on in there! (He hated his old job, pay was terrible, he used to get a lot of hassle, and the hours were awful too…)

    I’m just so scared to be alone again, I really do, truly love him with all my heart, and when we’re good, we’re ace, he’s my first real relationship and I can’t go through the pain of our first break up all over again, I can’t do it.

  41. I have been absolutely crushed, by a break up with a wife of 29 years. Tears flow like a river thru a dark place inside. All I want is to hold her again, but she is already with a new found love. Thats hurts worse then I could ever imagine. I have cried for days and nights. I need her, love her, and just cant get going again. I have even had thoughts of just ending it all the pain is that bad. Please help SOMEONE.

    • You have to get through literally one hour at a time and pray to God, the universe, what ever force is out there to bring you through it. The most important hing is keep alive. Don’t do anything terminal. She was after that long, like a part of you. You have suffered a terrible loss and need to let the grief flow justifiably and trust that the universe does offer light afterwards. You will become a stronger man than you were before, you deserve a deep love returned. you will change, you will grow and you will be alright because remember..you still have life. A heart and you are worth more than you feel you are at this point and one day your heart may be healed by an Angel. Keep living for the chance because the universe grants what we are open to manifesting if we ask with grattitude and life is sweet even if we have to walk alone for a while…we can sometimes smell flowers we never even noticed were there as some of them are inside your own heart..

    • 29 years, wow. I feel for you 🙁 …………… I wish I could say something to make you feel better but I am in the same boat and am lost myself. Why is life so challenging? I have just ended my relationship with my partner of 7 years because he was an alcoholic… Not the stereo-type, he held a job etc, etc… Yes we shared good times and do I love him??? I do. We’ve shared so many memories, good and bad. But his drinking has caused me so much pain and he just doesn’t seem to understand how bad he is. I felt as though I had no other option. But here I am, a 31 year old Woman, laying in my new room in my sister’s house. It’s only day 4………………All I want is my own kids and the happy family life with my husband. Instead I am alone in my 30’s. My heart keeps asking me why I left….. But in my mind I knew something had to give. I’m not sure what happened with you guys, but I hope you find happiness and spark again in your life.

  42. I was separated from my wife for a year, met young had kids young married young etc.. There was no hope of fixing it as I had already left many times before and always came back thinking we could make it work. Our daughters were already 16 and 18 and we both had a great relationship with them and they turned out great. I met a foreign girl and she was everything I wanted and couldn’t believe how amazing she was. The way we met was also so amazing that it felt as though it was a Devine thing. I thanked God for placing her in my life and we were both passionately in love. After her visa expired she had to return and I was sad and lonely. I flew to her country a month later to see her and then again 3 months after that to propose and every 5 months after that. We talked on the phone and Skype daily. She was my world. The process of coming together took 3 years (long divorce etc.) 5 months before my divorce was final I was excited and happy that soon I would be with my love and all would be perfect. A friend and I were meeting up to discuss a business and he brought along a female friend, I didn’t think much of it but through our conversation we just clicked and there was a sort of scary connection and chemistry. I really liked her. A couple days later we discussed business and then we’re traveling with a group for business. I could feel a danger of really falling for her, she was everything I didn’t think I could still find in my own back yard, what I mean is she was young, attractive, independent, business oriented, the books I read she read, all this without the Beyoncé “I don’t need no man mentality, lol we kept Amazing each other with how much we had in common. It was as if she was my perfect match, she was me if I was a girl..scary. I decided to tell her in conversation when sharing about each other that I was going through a divorce and had a long distance relationship who I was crazy about. I told her she was amazing and I was just waiting for the divorce to be final so I could marry her and be happy finally. She was happy for me and we just kept on getting along great. SOMEHOW SOMEWAY we end up falling in love with each other wtf!? It was so difficult for both of us (my long distance didn’t and doesn’t know) we had agreed that we would live each day one at a time and that we knew what we were getting into and that we both already had our paths planned out anyway and there’d be no immatureness about it bc we were being honest with each other and we both were lonely and it was better to enjoy each other’s company as long as we could. She made me happy and I her. It was so difficult because we both wanted to give so much more but couldn’t. A few times we did and broke up because it was getting to painful. I felt I could not be with her because long term she would not trust me if I could do what I was doing and she felt the same, that I wouldn’t trust a girl who knowingly gets involved with a guy who has a gf. It was getting harder for me to call and Skype my love while also in love with my local gf. Both are amazing women and I know you will say I don’t deserve either but that isn’t my question or why I’m writing this. We broke up because we both love each other too much, I felt that I also loved my long dist girl but I also had a responsibility to her. I had been supporting her and we were both waiting for over 3 years to be together. I love my long dist girl, but I can’t stop thinking and my heart can’t stop yearning for my local love that let me go because it was the right thing to do. We haven’t called or text, I want to so bad but I don’t want to make it worse. I’m sitting across the room from my foreign love knowing that I love her (fg) and getting ready to finally finally bring her home with me and yet I’m hurting inside for someone else. I was sure for three years and was good until I met my local girl. I’m a mess and I deserve to be. I’m not sure Anout anything anymore. Anyway I don’t expect to get all the answers here, truth is just writing it down has helped me and also helped me pass some time since I’m not sleeping tonight and we’re catching an early flight home. Why I met that girl I’ll never know. Was something trying to show me a better way or was this a test that I failed miserably why didn’t I meet here earlier on so that we could of had more time. One thing that brings me comfort is knowing that time heals all and If I was once sure about the path I had chosen it was for a reason and I can be sure of it again, it’s just very difficult at this very moment.

    • wow Micheal Jones, the story of how you fallen for your local girl so resemble mine in many ways. I fallen in love with a married man, I wouldn’t have gone there if he didn’t clearly state that his marriage was a disaster and for many years now was thinking of leaving his wife, the only reason he didn’t yet cause because of the children and his job…. We didn’t plan to fall in love, we just started as co-workers, than we became friends and in December last year we declare our love for each other and even went on a trip for few days. We broke up last month, this has been one of the hardest time of my life. I am questioning if he was genuine or just used me….. my heart says he is genuine, but his actions, him choosing to stick to his marriage makes my mind spin thinking he just used me. What’s your 5 cents? why don’t you choose your local girl if you have such strong feelings? As the other woman, my heart is hurting so much cause I feel like I lost my soul mate, we fitted each other so much at any level, and those are not my words, they are his, he told me so, so many times….. I still miss him and constantly think of him and try to make sense of what happened. Did he use me? Was he genuine? I still think I have been robbed of something beautiful….I talked about it few times with few other people, but I am still not getting it….. my head is…not my heart, my heart is still longing for him, still want him to choose me, to fight for me; but now even the last link between me and Him is no more (yesterday I lost our baby I was 5 weeks pregnant)….. I am pretty sure once I tell him about the miscarriage him and his wife will celebrate, the situation has gone away, they will go back to their marital bliss like nothing ever happen, like he never loved me, like I never exist, like I am a nothing… I am a mess, I need his support at a time like this, but I am sure he is not going to give it to me. Valentine day was the worse… he should have been here with me…. I owned that right when he told me and showed me over and over that he loved me and was in love with me, while he only had a lukewarm friendship with his wife…..instead I bet he was showering her with “Love” or pretending to, ……I am so angry thinking about it…. still….. How can “all” become “nothing”? how can “love” become “nothing”? How can 2 people that knew each other and every minute of their day so well have become strangers? How could he cared so deeply until few weeks ago and now not give a hoot? can you believe that in a week we use to send each other up to 10 thousands Facebook messages? and mind you we were together at least 2 days out of the 7. He couldn’t have enough of me, he wanted to know every 5 minutes of my day and I was the same, we were so in love and happy to “stalk” each other, I never felt so loved, supported, cared for, motivated by, in my life…. he is perfect for me and I for me, and yet he choose his wife cause of the marriage vows he recited to her 18 years ago. He chose true love cause over commitment, which is very noble, but very hurting to me. Please Micheal can you tell me your side as the man? cause I can’t understand. thank you

      • Essie,

        You are not alone. Reading your message made me realise I’m not alone either. I am in exactly the same situation except he did leave his wife and grown up kids but somewhere along the way he has left me too. Before, we messaged and spoke every chance we got but after he moved out, the messages dwindled contrary to what I thought it would be. I was looking forward to freedom to speak whenever we could, but no, to my frustration. I put it down to him needing space to adapt to his circumstances and facing the realisation that he has left his family. Over the months, whenever he was in town to visit his kids, he never made an effort to visit me and I often lose my patience with having to almost beg for justification as to why. Phone calls were getting more and more brief with arguments often breaking out. Conversations were no longer declarations of love and sweet nothings, but more of an obligation to speak to me, language became more and more disrespectful. And like you, we used to want to know what we were doing everyday and now he doesn’t disclose anything until it slips and another argument ensues. And like you, I cannot understand how a love so deep, where you pine for each other every second that we were apart, can disintegrate and crush and shatter your heart. How something so beautiful and so right can go so wrong? I thought him moving out was the start of a new life for us, something we had envisaged and longed for, for the past 2 years. He hasn’t returned to his wife. He lives an hour away with a mate. I have called it a day now, though not officially spoken to him after last argument. My heart hurts … feels as if a stake has been rammed in. My mind says .. let it go … but my heart says … it can’t cope … maybe give him time to enjoy the freedom that he has never had during his 25 yrs of marriage and maybe he might come back, but I won’t allow myself to keep hoping. I know I need to move on … I keep telling myself I do deserve more .. I’ve been in a bad marriage for 20 yrs myself and thought I had found love again. It amazing to experience love again, a love so deep and to miss someone again, but did not expect to experience a broken heart … my first broken heart … and boy … does it hurt. I’m staying strong and positive and allow time to heal and follow my mind rather than my heart. It has and will change me … I will be more cautious and probably take a long time to believe and trust a declaration of love again. After all it took him a long long time to convince me how madly and truly in love with me he was and when I was finally convinced … this happens. Heart still bleeding …

      • Essie,

        I can’t believe how similar our stories are!

        My MM who was my “soul mate” and “couldn’t live without me” and who was in contact every 5 minutes of the day just broke up with me two days ago saying he can’t keep the relationship, his wife has given him ultimatum to choose her and kids or me. And he can’t keep us!!

        I can’t bring myself to accept that all of what he was telling me for 3 years were lies to use me! I can’t be that stupid?! Or was I?

        I am so devastated and confused like you.

        What happened since you posted this? How are you now? What helped you cope?

        Please share as it is really helping me stay somewhat sane


    • BOYS WILL ALWAYS BE BOYS!!! The love that you have with your two girlfriends is not really a TRUE LOVE because if it is a true love then you will never fall in love again with other girl like what you wrote. maybe you just LIKE them but not LOVE them… If you truly love someone YOU CAN NEVER BETRAY THEM… You will always think about them specially when temptation will come your LOVE will be enough reason for you and will give you enough COURAGE to fight any temptation that will come on your way… LIFE IS ALWAYS A CHOICE and you choose to be like that TO HAVE A TWO TIMER HEART that because you are far from your other girlfriend you let yourself fall to the other one even if ONLY you have tried i know it won’t gonna happen but because you also want it that’s why it happens… it is very easy to say that you love someone but only few can prove it!!!

      • I agree. An honest man would not do both. You can have only one. You hurt and betrayed both women and yourself. You should have been honest so both women could choose. Everyone would have their eyes open. This is what happened to me. Sorta. He said his ex was just a friend. Well he’s with her and won’t even speak to me. He called me crazy for feeling something was wrong. He should have told me. She is married. He didn’t want anyone available. But he could have let me choose. It wouldn’t have hurt so much. It’s betrayal of trust. Not love. You don’t hurt people you love that way.

  43. hi everyone please help me am so much hurt and am in pain.i been in a relationship.i did all to keep it work,but everytime,lack of caring lack of luv in return to me.my heart always hope oneday he wll change up n luv me as same as me.i always deal with my minds and heart.heart saying he is my whole world I cant b apart from him he is my only happiness.i keeps shedding tears all days and night I lk to b alone but minds keep saying that he damn care for me.he is not loyal to me.a whole week can be passed without his msg I keep waiting in my mob for his msgs.when I ask he don’t have time he was busy.he say me to come out of dream world n live in reality.am so decourage,the wordlove is big but not everyone can fufill it to its true meaning.am not sure after all that happen I can b in luv again with anyone.my trust broke in too pieces..he is living his life as normal.damn shit of me I cant come out from the past..

    • Hi there. Been there with my ex husband. In our marriage, he told me not to love him anymore. He was having an affair with another married woman. It hurts like hell to have someone you love so deeply break you. And you be the one to pick up the pieces. There is no easy way to say it but you have to go through it to get the peace that YOU deserve. I am still searching for that peace. Can’t tell you that it is easy. Because if it was, this world would probably be a better place. But you have to be strong. It hurts. I am crying right now for you. I feel your pain.
      This article is true. Your heart and mind will disagree. I was listening it my heart for 9 years. And crying every one of them.

  44. I am so much in pain..we’ve been together for almost 8 years…and then that car accident happen when he is about to go home in our house..he called me that he is already in the hospital but I couldn’t go because her ex wife is coming together with her daughters…it’s been a week and I only came to visit him once because he doesn’t want he’s family to know about me…everytime I’m trying to visit him he’s ex wife was always there..I do not know now what to do and what to decide..I am so much in pain..my heart is aching…I don’t know what gonna happen to us and to our relationship…I don’t want to lose him..I don’t know if he’s still come back…all I can do is pray,cry,and wait until the time I can be able to talk to him..for me to know what to do.

  45. I was in a 9 month relationship which ended 2 months ago. He was my first love, my everything. Although we had different interests and different views the one thing we has in common was our love for each other. Problem was is anger issues, the horrible action and the abusive words would make me cry, but time after time I would forgive him. I was listening to my heart not my head.

    I did warn him time and time again, “there is only so many times I can forgive you untill I fall out of love with you”… And it wasn’t untill he started treating me better when I realized I wasn’t in love with him anymore. Of course I loved him, but not in love, there is a huge difference.

    I had developed feelings for my bestfriend at the time, I feel I did because he was treating me how I wanted my boyfriend to treat me and we just clicked so well.
    When I had realized all this, I broke up with my boyfriend. It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. I broke his heart real bad, but I had to do it. For both our sakes.

    I ended up with my bestfriend for a few weeks, we had told each other our feelings, and it was great while it lasted. But he told me he didn’t like me soon after, which I learnt to accept pretty easily…

    ANYWAY, so it’s been 2 months and recently I’ve had trouble sleeping because I’ve been thinking about my ex, I’ve been in regret and my head and heart just won’t leave me alone, I can’t stop my crying and I don’t know what to do. His also seeing another girl, which hurts to. I miss him, and I feel I may still be in love with him.

    PLEASE HELP, I really don’t know what to do with myself 🙁

    • don’t go back to your x because you had such different views it wold be a drainn for you and he was a bully to you from what u say. Hold out for the connection and friendship…AND chemistry and eventually it wil happen. Don’t settle. Use your head before the chemistry takes over..i speak the words i wish i had listened to myself

  46. I broke up with my ex of 11 months,its now a month since we broke up..he cheated on me and he wasnt sorry for that. I am in NCR since then. Am hurting so much cause i still love him but i dont want to beg him to come back. I want to move on and forget about the disgrace he caused me. Please advice me on what to do? am i following my heart or mind? its too confusing to me because i love him at the same time i feel alot of resentments towards him..i just wish karma will catch up with him. Advice pls.

  47. So what happens when you have an amazing man but, there is a disconnect? When your mind tells you that walking away is wrong but, your heart lusts for desire, passion and attraction you just don’t feel. You know you love them and in most aspects you are in love with them. Is attraction something that we can learn? Does one stay and hope that one day you’ll be able to overcome this void that you are feeling or do you spare him the hurt that you might cause later on. I don’t plan on hurting him but, I am afraid that I just might never reach that point of complete fulfillment and so I will deprive my life of true happiness and love. Let me know your opinions please. Thank-you.

    • I’m in the same sort of situation as you.. I have a great guy who treats me great loves me unconditionally has helped me through so much and can and wants to support me.. He could really take care of me. But that crazy insane love was just not there.. We do have a great connection sexually but I felt it was missing on a deep intellectually satisfying way. Answering your question is helping me answer my own.. Even if you stay you will probably leave when the better thing comes along.. And that will probably hurt him more. You will probably always have those thoughts in your head.. I don’t know what true love is or when you know it’s right.. But I’ve heard you just know so if you don’t.. Its probably better to spare the hurt sooner than later :/

    • I too have that “disconnect” feeling. I have an amazing husband. He loves me very much, always has. I knew before we were married that I never had that “passion” or attraction, with him but I thought because we were so good in so many other ways that I was making the right “logical” choice for my life. We have been married for 15 years, we have happy, well adjusted boys and a good life. It hasn’t been perfect, there have been challenges but they seem to be magnified for me because after so many years things have become very …… Unsatisfying. I feel so guilty because I do not want to hurt my family but I also feel so lonely living our life like really great room mates. I go through the motions and try to feel something, anything, because that is the right thing to do. I became re-acquainted with an old, special friend, last year. It was like a magnet for both of us. We both have strong beliefs and tried several times to walk away from each other. We were unsuccessful at staying away from each other and got caught up in our “all consuming love” for each other. We feel we missed an opportunity many years ago and now we can’t make it right without destroying 2 families. This is wrong regardless of how we feel about each other. We have recently decided that we have to sort out our lives before we do anymore damage. Here lies the problem for me, my marriage does not have the chaos that his marriage has but he once had a great love and attraction many years ago for his wife. I am having such a difficult time because the logic I used to get married is no longer enough for me. I feel so conflicted because I made a choice many years ago for what seemed like all the right reasons & felt like I could get passed the lack of what I thought was the superficial stuff, I think I was wrong. My compromise may very well be the demise of my marriage if I can’t get my heart on track with my mind. Bottom line all the logic in the world doesn’t mean much if you can’t feel …… Chose wisely, attraction, passion, chemistry, whatever you want to call it is either there or it isn’t i do not believe that changes…… Til death do us part is a really, really long time, you don’t want to feel like you had set a goal instead of making a promise 🙂 ….. I miss my love every single second and cry everyday because of what I have given up and am giving up again, 20 some years later…..

      • Your story IS my story…. Every line. Its uncanny how our stories are exactly the same? I don’t know if to laugh or cry? I’m wondering if you feel any better? I hope so! I want to know it there is any hope for me too…..

  48. I am struggling with that issue right now. My head says one thing and my mind says another.
    I know it won t work and isn t what I want long term, yet my heart keeps saying just maybe. Throw in some jealousy and you are done. My heart keeps winning, though I know it won t make me happy.

    • Jemima, follow your mind. I am also going thru the exact same thing after close to 6 years, engagement and living together 3 of those years! You will find someone eventually that will love you the way you deserve to be. I know its very difficult to see that now but it will happen. I just keep listening to my voice of reason telling me that I do not want to sentence myself to a lifetime of misery. If I stayed, that’s exactly what I would doing. Yes give and take is essential but you can not continue to give give give and not getting in return. Yes the idea of being in love is an awesome one but only if its 100% commitment of BOTH parties involved. It could also just be that maybe that person gave all he/she knows how to give but it unfortunately it couldn’t fulfill your needs. Doesn’t mean you ask for too much, it just means you two aren’t incompatible. Hang in there. It will get better!! Be strong! Don’t backslide into misery.

      • WOW…That is exactly what I needed to hear it is like you are speaking my own thoughts.
        I DO NOT WANT TO SENTENCE MYSELF TO A LIFE OF MISERY. He doesn’t know how to love…he is damaged and doesn’t know what is love. Somehow I do not feel happy with him. I feel insecure and unloved. Why do I need to stay with such a man? He may have given all he could but it did not fill my needs. It is nobody’s fault. Just incompatibility I guess.
        Love is there…but apparently that does not mean you should always stay together.

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